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SP IMPACT 35!

2009-04-03T13:43:00.009+08:00

SP IMPACT 35!

welome to my entry once again!
its been ages since i updated.
thanks for those who said "pics speaks a thousand words"!
appreciated e encouragement!
i guess its been a long yet short time.
my 3rd spiritual bdae is coming soon.
i always remember hw God saved me on 110406.
thnk God for Jorris & Jean =)
its both of youu tht brought me & guide me.

e recent happenings are NP; CAMP; SP!
after e youth transferred ovr to NP, we had great time in CG & svc.
if you guys wanna knw more, go to my facebook & take a look @ e pics.
Jon, ZK, Cliff, Joel, LinHui =)
make an impact in NP!!!
believe you guys can do it mann.

Contemporary Generation Camp was great!
although e place is like army place; hall is humid, but i can sense God so strongly.
went in earlier one day to prepare & hlp out.
Leanne, Jenny, Shuhfen, Jeremy, Celestine, Gordon, Ritchie, PSPT, well done!
really see hw everyone worked tgthr to be effective & efficient.
e next day, everyone streamed into e campsite.
e teachings & workshops were vry applicable.
personally, i learnt alot abt e contemporary issues & hw to handle.
jasmine taught well & deliver e message across clearly.
e dramas acted before e workshop were funny.
i uploaded in facebook too =)
binghong start to ask qns & really see him changed after e camp.
it was encouraging witnessing e growth of many seeds.
didn't hv a chance to play for games but i thnk God for e weather.
lucky thre isn't any major casualty.
only michelle, she shocked me.
thought she is unconscious, but lucky is just open wound.
through this camp, i guess we were fed with food tht is more than enough.
we had 4 meals though. hahas.
finally is e theme night!
everyone is getting ready for e mega event.
wearing e best outfit & looking good.
i preferred last yr theme night.
i guess is e place tht is e diff.
still enjoyed & we toasted "hallelujah!"
took many photos & after tht busying packing up.
went to eat @ cck & "balek kampong."
nvr had much rest after tht too.

TADA! i m @ SP grp right nw.
NPians, will miss you ppl.
looking forward to witness e happenings u guys hv.
JIAYOU guys & gurls!
ru jun & guo jun, both of u can do it!
lead thm & teach thm well.
SPians, here i am!
i knw is diff culture & ppl.
God challenged me to go out of my comfort zone.
step by step, get to knw u guys better.
went to kiu & pooi CG.
going to bao CG today.
God, i prayy tht i can add strength to thm.
rmber about AB & being a support for one another?
let's unite in spirit & in one body as a unit!
CHARGE!!!
e outreach on wed was a gd one.
come on bros & sis, this is e time!
we r tgthr in this IMPACT campaign.
Matthew event is coming! Easter is coming!
m so excited =)
continue to prayy & fast, expect sth BIG!
perservere & hold on to GOD!

<1 Cor 9:24-27>

memories!

2008-07-14T01:15:00.002+08:00

anticipate!

2008-07-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

anticipate!

BOO! i am back again. must trust me tht i will update! hahas. nt 7mths tht long lols. anyway, thnked God for this wk. my projects & assignments are piling up & up. esp my DD&D, i wnt to national lib on mon to search for bks. bit by bit, step by step! it does test my perseverance & patience. tue is another day to spread e gospel. i really see how God worked through his children. only those who are willing to be used by God, will experience transformations & e work of HS. i guess is my 1st time sharing to a guy. =) was helping out job. i knw is nt abt e gender, but thre is diff methods & ways to approach. a great exp w God! after tht job,aileen & me wnt training. e rest cnt make it so we start e engine. saw deb & she joined us for e run. all e marathon participants are ENTHU! i pray tht all of us will be ENTHU in serving God just like e same spirit we had whn we run. through all this training, it push my perseverance & stamina. many a times i felt like just stop running, but deb push me. she even sang song for me. hahas. really appreciate her alot. reminds me of 1st CG:NP4. campus run isnt easy, with all e slopes. challenge all those ppl tht dislike to run or dnt hv a habit ones, to GO FOR IT! participate f mizuno run. wanna nike one too =) hahas. encouraging all my ppl to GO! yest was so cool! filming video for mt assignment. so many "NGs". it isnt easy to shoot a drama. hahas. today's CTR was great! pastor jeff share abt 2 pts. importance of teamwork & e combination of sharing gospel + praying. amen! let's nt only serve & do. but PRAY! =) allow God to move & work whn we ask frm him. at e same time am looking forward to HK LC trip. still searching of cheaper fares. ms tina rushing me for it, if nt i wont be able to make it coz i still hv attachment. anticipate God's annointing & work in my life & ministry! WOHOO.

JUMP

1 cor 3:6

reflecting...

2008-06-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

hellos. almost 7 mths nt updated by blog. wanted to change e blogskin & all, anyone willing to help me? hahas =) well, this period of time had happened so much changes. but GOD nvr change! looking back, i have been taking care of NP-God's ministry for my 3 yrs of tertiary life. i really thnked God for e chance to hv a r/s w him. i rmbered tht i had a BIG blow whn i m sec 4. although my 'O's result isnt tht bad, but my life is messed up 3 yrs back. i believe if God nvr came into my life at tht moment of time, i wont hv e chance to even see him in heaven. truly, truly appreciate God tht he sent jorris to knw me. & get to knw jean & randall too. i always rmber e day tht i converted at S11. after tht day, my life transformed 360 degrees.

from a child to an young adult serving God in his ministry, taking care of his flocks. i thnked God for jean tht she brought me till so far w God. sharing her life, experiences, testimonies. i rmber our 1st NP4 CG with 3 of us: jean, jose,me. she taught me leadership skills, teaching skills, hw to lead CG, hw to lead believers etc. she is someone who i still admire & respect. although i might be quiet; inward looking; softspoken, but she nvr stop helping me to overcome & experience breakthroughs. her patience, perseverance, faithfulness moved me to keep serving. no matter whre you r nw, i cherish e days we served tgthr. =)

right nw, NP hv grown to almost 30ppl. God, is you who hv e power & ability to do so. pray for new faces, new believers may cme & experience you! i wanna thnk NEL (: shepherd, appreciate your time spent w me. i cherish evry single moment w you. even though you are busy, but you still continue to lead me & teach me to grow in God. learnt to be independent, accountability, communication, moving in holy spirit, teaching skills etc. step by step, God is bringing me through challenges, problems, struggles. many ppl will ask & concern ovr e no. of sheeps i am taking care of. just wanna say i love thm all! more thn myself. appreciate everyone of their time, sharing, trust, gifts, hugs. i am learning to delegate tasks & roles. training & discipling my ppl. but God, i need you to motivate thm. i need you to show thm e purpose. i need their cooperation at e same time, Lord. guide me to draw thm to you! many at times i wanna give up, but is always you who draw me back. i am burdened for NP2, in fact NP. its time to move guys & gurls! thre is always time for evrything, but if you all are gonna stuck & pause at a corner, God cnt use all of you to influence & impact e others.

distractions? unwillingness? busyness? studies? projects? what hinders you? pls evaluate & reflect through! how long hv you been stop running? are you ready to CHIONG for God? are you willing to surrender to God your everything? do you want to be in this battle? do you hv faith & trust in him? what is your priority nw? what is your desires? what is your goal f God? who are you serving? at e same time, i am asking myself too. COME ONE NPs! put on e armor of God, hold on to his sword. only those tht follow God, will live in him. i strongly believe NP will see a revival!

i see how God use me to partnership w him during worship & teaching. or even whn i spent time w ppl. Thnks f giving me problems to handle! God, help me to advice & also provide biblical principles. i pray for NP2 tht God grow all of us in unity, maturity, courage and knowledge. train us to hv skillful hands & strong minds. pls throw your laziness & slackness away! focus gurls! be discipline in time mgt & planning! God! cultivate our roots, eliminate e weeds in our lives, understanding e process of pruning, wait patiently for harvest. lastly, thnk you Lord for 1 convert:zi ying =)

1 tim 4:16

NP July 5 converts

P.U.S.H

MOVE IT!

2007-11-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

MOVE IT!

heys peeps!
glad tht i updated my blog?
no more spider webbies. =)
for these 1 mth plus, really learnt a lot.
although in e mth of sep, thre isnt any converts.
but i believe tht whn we sow e right seed,
it will surely reap.
learnt a lot frm WFL.
attended e SHAPE essentials by nel.
Spiritual gifts, Heart, Ability,
Personality, Experiences
all these r nt born but is made by god&given by god.
evry single one of us believer have gifting.
discover&develop ur giftings t build&serve this KOG.
heart is talking abt your passion.
what is your passion?
passion is not your interests.
passion is what god wants you to do&it lasts till eternal.
if u haven find ur passion yet, find it NOW!
is impt to knw your passion for god.
ability is e quality or skill tht u hv which makes it possible f u to do sth.
like talents or even natural abilities.
acting,classifying,counselling,dancing,evaluating,
musical,recruiting,researching,graphics,
managing,planning,promoting,repairing,
resourceful,singing,teaching,welcoming,writing.
personality as most ppl knw.
sanguine,choleric,melchanolic,phelgmatic?
what spiritual,painful,educational,ministry experiences u hv?
maybe u can pen it dwn.

in e mth of oct, is my bdae!
is on water bap.
hahas.
was thinking what if my bdae is my baptised date?
so glad tht my sheeps made e decision.
e old has gone, e new has come.
after tht NP had leadership camp w TP & NS.
is at BB/GB campsite.
i rembered me & paul wnt sheng siong to buy a whole trolley of cans & breads.
took cab to thre due to heavy rain.
had grt tym serving tgther w jeremy as food comm.
learnt a lot frm him too.
i had morning training w him. do crunches & all e stupid thing.
this camp really drill us spiritually.
knw more ppl through fellowship too.
had sharing w jose during one of e nights.
encourage one another & hlp each othr.
although sometimes we r in diff cg, we r serving e same god.

fast & pray!
when sch reopen, we share christ.
amen!
guys grp had conversion.
e gurls shld do sth.
& it all starts w e leaders.
come on!
god annoint us w yr power&spirit.
give us more challenges.
god really mould me in courage & confidence.
stepping out of comfort zone.
god, come & test my faith.
give me clear visions!
forsee e future.
if no one is serving right nw, will u continue to serve?
serve god, nt serving man.
yesterday martin frm hope franfert came to ctm & shared abt BGR.
e africans delegates frm hope came to our service & clm.
had dinner w both of thm.
learnt a lot frm thm too.
pastor henry have such grt faith in him tht reminds me tht is GOD.
mphoh shared abt their evanx, outreach or even his ministry.
so cool!
during clm, pastor jasmine taught abt determination,diligent,peserverance.
is like a car(person,engine,wheels).
met up w e core gurls.
let's try new ways to share e word.
let's pray & prophesy f e ppl!
do things tht u've nvr done before.
u will see a diff result.
TRUST in him!
let's believe tht god will create happenings in our grp.
AIZAI! (:

two memorable days.

2007-09-14T02:05:00.000+08:00

two memorable days.
YEAS!
back frm CL & evo retreat.
jacob's place is really cool.
simple & nice.
pool table!!!
clear e place & discuss abt e food.
thn started t play pool.
watch vcd & ate mac.
evryone is like doing their stuff.
most peeps haven cme yet.
slowly wait till nel & e rest come.
watched ju-on.
priscilla & pei xin so farnie.
all of us watch tgther & ate pizza, kfc.
activities & fashion party tym.
this is e part tht is soo hilarious.
laugh until can roll on e floor =)
8 models, 4 teams, 3 rounds.
being creative, daring & unique.
1st round: cross dressing
first tym dress like a guy.
samuel HAHAHAHAS.
sooo farnie.
make up f him,wear heels,hairband,earring,skirt.
f me is moustache,gel hair,white blazer,long pants,sunglass.
saw other grps.
most farnie is kok.
more like those ren yao.
arrrrgh!
2nd round: dress like e pic given
my team had e talithba dressing.
i need to wrap myself up totally in black,only eyes are seen.
samuel had moutache,turban,bombs.
i am suppose to be mummy in egypt(dead alrdy).
samuel is a prata seller & goes clubbing evryday.
e storyline so farnie.
3rd round: bonus(obj-to make nel laugh)
a short skip.
whn we go clubbing,he drunk.
on e way back hme,he bang me & i roll on e ground.
guess what?
sprained my back.
nw much better.
our grp won!!!
2 tubs of ben & jerry, woahs!
after tht we all clear,wash up, play agn.
fell asleep at 3 plus.
woke up at 4 plus & felt so awake.
kok they all eating, chatted a while.
try t wnt back t slp (:
early in e morning play pool w jenny.
murderer,heart attack, etc.

wnt to jocelyn place to cook beehoon.
bought lunch & wnt sheng siong.
keep chionging.
thnked god f jocelyn's grandma.
thnked god f liping's dad ride.
reached chalet at 3 plus.
p&w thn wnt to fetch visitors.
joyce,harry cant cme.
get t knw more abt peihung.
played murderer to connect thm tgther.
sent her off at e bus stop & called rh t chat.
god, is it tht some things are left t be unsaid will be better?
really dnt understand.
somehow it affect me.
e kitchen made me more upset.
is in a mess!
i admit i cleared e place t siao qi.
wnt to eat prata after evrything.
didnt knw i knw jolene.
nvr seen her f quite some tym.
same course as me (:
nemo & yw eat till want t slp.
zj,kok & samuel cming t eat too.
on e way back,saw kok's "type".
august,kok,sam,me,ql,zhige.
we reached thre at 6am.
played games agn & agn.
super lame!
cooked porridge at 8am.
had assistants,hlpers,promoters,audiences.
my porridge was ruined.
but still wanna thnked god f evryone.
all e encouragements, affirmations.
knw tp peeps more during this 2 days.

many qns going through my mind.
god, hlp me t overcome.
use me miraculously!
keep praying.
keep persevering.
keep running.
faith is e key!
NP3 SOAR 7!

divine exchange

2007-08-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

divine exchange

Sing for joy to God our strength
Sing for joy to God our strength, our strength
If we call to Him, He will answer us
If we run to Him, He will run to us
If we lift our hands, He will lift us up
Come now praise his name, all you saints of God.
Draw near to Him, he is here with us
Give Him your love, He's in love with us
He will heal our hearts, He will cleanse our hands
If we rend our hearts He will heal our land.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today.

had grt tym p&w with god. thnked god f job's cd. =)

Signs & Symptoms Of YOYO =)

2007-08-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

Signs & Symptoms Of YOYO =)

1) Edema(swelling) seen on e fingers clots e blood & thus heart unable to pump therefore leads to death.
2) Sweating profusely due to exert pressure. Dehydration occurs & one may die of thirst. [Give IV drip]
3) Bleeding tendency seen on e stomach due to e rebounce of e YOYO. Excessive blding leads to death.

wahhs. think this is lame. was hyper after studying in sch. on e way back hme, in e bus w ahhao & thought of this. hahas. =) sort of apply what i have learnt. exams coming! everyone buck up. monitor your own study tym. let's excel well in our studies to glorify GOD. AMEN! keep praying, keep fasting, keep striving, keep on going. WE ARE TGTHER IN THIS RACE! =X

"MIAN BAO" SONG!

2007-05-06T03:36:00.000+08:00

"MIAN BAO" SONG!

created by goh rui hao a.k.a ahhao:

MIAN BAO JI DAN, MIAN BAO CAI!
MIAN BAO HOT DOG, MIAN BAO CHEESE!

clapps clapps! hahas. so farnie. when he describe it, i thought composing e tune to a song. but is nt out yet. t be continued... hahas. yeaps. =)

do your 100%, god will do e rest!

2007-04-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

do your 100%, god will do e rest!

heyo!
was so blessed today. =))
receieved my 1st spiritual msg yesterday by my sheep, dada.
only her remembered.
although i dnt knw why she knw.
really appreciated it.
today she gave me my fav cross necklance. (:
ahhao, my sheep also gave me a card.
indeed, vry grateful.
thanks my sheeps!
lorve you all.
today wnt t kbox w dada.
been vry vry long since i go kbox.
enjoyed singing & fellowshipping.
we managed t stay f another 1 hr extra.
wahahas.
we wnt t walk here & thre.
looking f my usher shirt.
will be doing this wk.
yeas.
excited!
must smile t me k?
cause i will smile t everyone ^^
wheee!
wnt t city hall t meet jol.
ate MOS w her.
e uncle so farnie de.
like informal shepherding.
hahas.
ahhao thre crapping.
after eating, meet kelvin.
he's a easter convert!
woahs.
so cool!
get t knw him more.
CG at esplanade.
we squeezed in a cosy place.
share abt our lives.
played running game.
can c diff ppl, run diff style.
laugh until tummyache.
loads t evaluate. =)
gd job everyone.
wanna affirm fel, vinc, yiyi f your spirit.
thnked god f evry1 too.
worshipping e lord.
"one desire", is t be w you.
until e ends of e earth.
oh lord, give us clean hands, give us pure hearts.
let us be grateful of evrything you've done f us.
our amazing GOD.
cant wait t c you face t face.
i knw it wont be so soon.
more lives f us t saved.
yes GOD, it will be done.
NP3 6 converts by end MAY.
let's bring 20 ppl f Urban Groove 2 & 12 ppl for e LAN gaming competition.
pray specifically & God will show miracles.
AMEN!

ITS COMING!!!

2007-04-05T09:58:00.000+08:00

ITS COMING!!!

i m back! 2 mths nvr blog. i can c e spiderwebs. but thnked god f jol. she helped me change my blogskin. 1 mth alrdy. seems so long you knw? like what you said, 1 year. within this mth. a lot of things happen. rember attending prayer meet at fcbc touch centre. paula, siqin and xueling water bap. evo retreat, membership class, NP mcg, poly/di camp, MM campaign and now easter is coming. its just tht fast but whn u gone through it, it seems slow. hahas. dnt knw what t say t you. just too much misses. =) knw tht you are doing fine. so many pics taken f us t see. hahas. thre is really nice. i knw vry vry soon i will see you agn. waiting.

i am glad tht my attachments are ovr. more time f ministry. evo retreat i missed some parts thou. NP mcg was at ECP. we didnt hv any contacts going. hahas. we still continue t fellowship & share lives. we built tent & picnic. cycle, play UNO. poly/di camp was a vry memorable camp. transfers joined us. we had so much fellowship. we learn tgther, slp tgther, eat tgther. teachings, workshops, showcases, games, healing conference. learnt a lot. remember having 3am picnic. hahas. is fun. transfers are always so hyper. we learnt a lot frm thm too. thnk god f all of thm! during healing conference, many are healed. job, abigail, cherish, etc. God is a miracle maker! amen. yesterday was MM campaign. grt! its nice. thnk god f e deco ppl! nemo, rachelle, job, rh, vinc, many more. they all put in a lot of effort. let's build a TAG generation. NP 14 converts f easter! it will be done. (:

nw leading NP3. taking care of many lives at e same time saving more lives. planting more seeds & produce thm into plants. God, i need more strength, more faith, more patience, more humility, more knowledge, more skills, more visions. i can do all things through christ who gave me strength. =) taking a job tht takes 4 hrs per wk. yupps. NP STARBURST! let's jiayou tgther! unity in spirit!
-Genesis 9-

CT's cute sides.

2007-01-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

drawn by yiyi at KAP mac, 30thJAN07, 0945pm (:

SURPRISE!

2007-01-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE!

wahhs.
suddenly just wanted to blog.
although i said i want change blogskin thn blog.
well, i changed my mind.
recently too many things happened.
all just came so sudden & fast.
studies, ministry.
exams r cming.
in fact, tmr i have prac exam.
pls pray for me!
i will try my best t balance.
GOD, this is e time you want us t overcome.
you want us to learn & do our best.
more ordeals, more problems cming f us t face.
let us nt be defeated by thm.
NP2 AIZAI!
nvr evr regret making this decision in my life.
always in deep lorve w GOD.
always yearning more of him.
really wanna impact ppls' lives.
GOD, strengthen me!
POWER EVANGELISM!

i thnked GOD, my chef shephered f allowing me t knw him personally.
its been such a amazing journey.

i thnked GOD f my ex & current shepherd, utan(:
she's always here in my heart.
she build strong foundation in me.
i really wanna thnked herr f everything.
always & forever.

i thnked GOD f my ex shepherd, sam too.
always so crappy & lame.
showed his pastoral side, being so caring.
learnt a lot frm him too.

i thnked GOD f my fellow sister-in-christ, yiwei.
she's always been so supportive.
& nw, i wanna t help herr t grw e grp.
YESH, we can do it!

i thnked GOD f NP2!
i just lorve this family soo much.
evryone is made by GOD.
evryone is soo special & unique.
w diff giftings & talents.
let's c NP2 grw t another lvl.
we will c BREAKTHROUGHS!!!
AMEN!

i thnked GOD f jorris-genesis.
you, who brought me t christ.
you, who always been thre f me.
always thre to support me.
i lorve YOU, laopo!

i thnked GOD f my dearest sheep, diana.
although nw we r facing problems.
but let's face it tgther.
believe tht you will be a strong disciple.
been so encouraging & swt (:

i thnked GOD f NP!
remember evo retreat & those gatherings we had tgther.
we had so much fun dancing, cooking, playing, serving tgther!
UNIT-ed (:

i thnked GOD f my family in hope.
will always serve in my church.
want to fill up e auditorium.
bring ppl t cross e line of faith.

thre r soo much t thnked GOD for.
sry if i nvr put yr name.
just tell me(:
GOD lorves us.
i lorve ppl.
i admit emotions is so scary.
it can make you happy & sad.
but no matter what, i understand & want evrything t change f e better.
tivona - lover of nature!

habakkuk 2:2(KJV)

a day to REJOICE!

2006-11-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

a day to REJOICE!

HELLOS!
such a happy occasion. (:
made mie want to blog.
one mth nvr write lrs.
faith must be vry honoured.
SOOOO HAPPY!
let mie say frm morning.
hrmms.
suppose to go faith's hse with yiwei to deliver breakfast.
but i cant go outtx tht early.
hope tht she felt blessed.
i must say yiwei grew a lot.
learnt so much frm herr.
wonderful child of god.
had ctm at 12pm.
sowing plans, CG evaluation, goals.
utan shared teaching.
wahhs.
e message version is really QIM!
is testing our eng too.
KEWL right?
after tht we rushed to s11.
but guess what?
its raining heavily & none of us have umbrella.
get ready & we ran & ran.
actually felt gd whn e rain splashed on mie.
i remembered last time i always like to be in e rain.
this is e 2nd time after being a believer.
i knw getting yrself in e rain is nt honouring god.
all of us are so drenched.
wnt in centrept to dry ourselves.
rush to s11 for meeting w nel.
nel shared soo many stuffs.
i really learnt a lot frm herr.
my first meeting w her i guess.
hope church in spore is e 2nd largest.
WOWW!
we didnt knw at all.
evryone learnt a lot after they wnt to hope bangkok.
we need more leaders to rise up.
to go other countires & fulfil e grt commission.
nel asking for goals.
i was thinking for quite some time.
asking god for direction.
saw e tv which shows a dice of "one".
i believe god want mie to add one more.
and so i decided.
thn e teaching was so powerful.
it hit mie straight!
even what nel says also hit mie.
i really have much to think.
"take care of yr spiritual walk!!!"
after e meeting, have another teaching frm sam.
seriously, i cant concentrate.
was thinking abt many stuffs.
after tht, took pics w my NP2.
just love thm so much, more thn myself.
so excited for service.
had a feeling tht faith will made her decision today.
i sing with all my hearts to GOD.
just wanna be in his presence.
supernatural life part 5 of 7.
during alter call, faith indeed made her decison.
she rededicated!
all of us jumped for joy!
hugged herr & she teared.
was so happy for my beloved sister.
e angels in e heaven are rejoicing!
we wnt to cineleisure food court.
blessed herr w fish & chips.
yumyum!
e day will come!
NP2 storm 17! (:

AWESOME!!!

2006-10-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

AWESOME!!!

.071089.
this is e day.
this is e day.
tht e Lord has made.
tht e Lord has made.
we will rejoice.
we will rejoice.
and be glad in it.
and be glad in it.

061006
i had a wonderful time my cg.
i meet dav w huiping also.
there are some problems here & thre.
but by FAITH, we continued.
bought egg tart for herr.
bought lunch for their friends.
wnt upp to their friend's house.
first time eating tea egg.
yumyum!
only spent little time w herr.
i wnt to meet oli & heph.
bought prezzies.
i have e mood to shopp BUT why am i nt buying?
GRRRR!
wnt back to meet thm at IMM.
bought BBQ foods & stuffs.
chiong to meet e rest & wnt to kar hse.
cindy & i wnt to kar hse to cook.
had limited time soo both of us did e best we could.
our beehoon & soup done. (:
start e fire & YIPPES.
we ate tgther, sing tgther, laugh tgther.
although is only 7 of us, i still lorve thm.
serving, i lorve it. (:
actually i felt quite moody.
i dnt knw what happen to mie also.
but whn things keep mie busy i will nt think.
played a game.
blind-folded mie. (HAHAS)
i knw sth is wrong all e while.
BUT i just dnt knw what is it.
utan suppose to find mie while i hide.
cindy bluff mie & brought mie to somewhere to hide.
i saw lights.
removed my blind fold.
"happy birthdaye to you ..."
i saw e beautiful candles lighted for mie.
i saw how beautiful life is.
i saw e light NOT e darkness anymore.
i saw my birthdaye mooncake.
isnt tht cute & swt of thm?
i am simply surprised & touched by thm.
wished & blew all my candles.
utan, cindy, yiwei had some words for mie.
tears coming esp whn cindy spoke, even thou she lost herr voice.
i lorve thm, i appreciate thm, lets run this race tgther!
i remembered he once said he will celebrate my birthdaye in this way.
but its ovr. yupps.
is NP2 , is thm who i lorve, tht celebrated my birthdaye.
thannks to ALL e efforts.
thannks for e prezzies.
we create a 7-steps NP2 dance.
we sing and took pics tgther.
what a memorable BBQ cum birthdaye.
packed upp & wnt home with e strong haze.

071006
my youngest sis brought mie a simple prezzzie.
i appreciate it loads.
after my tuition, i wnt to meet my cg peeps.
bought what we need & wnt to mind cafe.
nice place to relax.
we played games, eat, drink, laugh tgther.
utan & fiona is e winner for e first hand game.
tht really makes us laugh.
OHNO!
my mood swing continued.
wanna ask papa, WHY?
after playing for 2 hrs we left thre.
walked halfway.
STUNNED!
zhige, oli, vinc, mk, ck, pc popped outtx.
"happy birthdaye to youu ..."
i was quite embarassed.
but i really appreciate it.
e cheesecake is yumyum!
thannks for e prezzies.
rushed to service after **
today service is powerful.
i lorve e time whn all of us gather in e church to p&w him.
all e songs tht we sing to him WOW!
i cried outtx in my heart.
wanted to stay.
i missed 2 times of service.
wnt to wedding dinner after p&w.
after e dinner, we wnt home.
evry year, my family will celebrate my birthdaye at home.
cutting cake, eating tgther.
just a simple one will do.
i requested guitar.
mum said tht e thai trip is my prezzie.
i got nth to say but i still want guitar. (:

081006
happie birthdaye sam.
HAHAS.
so weird tht his birthdaye is after mine.
wnt to meet my ctm peeps at s11.
my first time attending team rally.
SOO COOL!
our god is an awesome god!
prayyed for one another.
pastor jeff shared to us abt e areas of personal growth.
1) grow in mental capability
2) grow in our physical health
3) grow in spiritual being
4) grow in social life
end jan 07 goal
tertiary: 550
total: 3722
nel will be taking care of tp, rp, np.
WAHHS.
we will be serving tgther.
GREAT!!!

"find e confidence i need to persevere until i received whatever GOD has promised mie."

M.I.S.S.I.O.N

2006-10-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

M.I.S.S.I.O.N

HELLOS.
its been one mth.
time flies.
just came back frm lampang,thai.
wnt to hope lampang to help.
mission trip is to learn and add strength.

28th sep 06:
- wnt to take my new passport early in e morning
- meet w xue and wnt to chinatown
- meet w e rest & change money
- ate dessert and took train to budget terminal
- NP: zhige, oli, vinc, utan sent us off
- ate our BK, took pics before flying off
- msg & call whoever and BYE BYE
- we ran to e plane (we are late)
- wow! really budget
- e plane is small & slow
- tian, oil, jane, pang waited for us at changmai airport
- earnest was sick and they prayed for him on e spot
- took pics and board e van
- wnt to changmai shopping centre to eat dinner
- took earnest to e pharmacy
- we had a 15 mins shopping
- thn visit hope koh kha
- had grt time p&w
- prayyed for e peeps thre & OIL
- finally wnt to our hotel (regent lodge)
29th sep 06:
- wnt to a high sch to evanx
- share testi and invite thm to e service on sun
- james had 3 converts & fel and i had 1 coming for e service
- wnt to e university and ate lunch thre
- sam brought additional 8 eggs
- james learn how to ride motorbike
- e peeps thre >13 yrs can ride
- james get to knw 1 guy call ton
- after fellowshipping, wnt to e family grp
- their culture affects their evanx
- they have difficulty rising males upp
- prayyed and help thm with e structure
- xue, fel, james stayed thre to do their hair
- sam, nel, nemo, mie wnt to BIG C to shopp
- we expect WOW, but reached thre -_- is like carrefour lohhs
- earnest rest in e hotel and we fetch him
- after tht we wnt to their anniversary
- they are strong in family feeling
- chicken wings, fried pig legs, fruits (yumyum)
- we performed at e last part
- james: wushu, calligraphy & malay wear
- earnest: sounds
- sam: narrator
- fel, nemo: drawing
- nel: hip hop
- xue: chinese wear
- me: indian wear
- we sing a song at e end
- had grt time thre jumping and living for GOD
- wnt back to hotel & eat instant noodle
30th sep 06:
- breakfast opp hotel
- attend CG at high sch
- played volleyball, captain ball w thm
- meet upp with e ULs (teach & help)
- share abt front door & back door
- shopping at lampang town
1st oct 06:
- wnt to prayer meet & service
- earnest, fel and i wnt to pick sam upp
- he is sick & can prepare for 45 mins (GUYS)
- we are late & e rest helped
- we shared testi and sing song
- had lunch at there & fellowshipping
- evanx at hope of theon church
- learn fishing & motorbike (WHEEE!)
- 5 converts and met 1 hip hop teacher
- had service at there & dinner(enjoy)
2nd oct 06:
- we bless e hotel staffs there
- watched elephant show (feed bamboo stick)
- had lunch at area 1 (cooked by tian)
- prayyed for healing (:
- wnt to area 3 to bless & pray for thm too
- e old man got kidney & heart problem (tube inserted in left hand)\
- shopp at seri department store
- wnt for horse carriage ride for 1//2 hr
- explore here & there eg. chinatown, guitar shops, KFC
- had dinner at new generation unit
- we cooked together (esp sam-cooked eggs and vege)
- had p&w togther & sam talked to e UL
- 25 is their goal (:
- prayyed for thm & we left there
- fel, xue and mie do e personality test till 4pm
3rd oct 06:
- watching waterfall (SAM slp late & cancelled)
- wnt to see e famous ceramics thre
- i remember e BIG chicken bowl (been knocked so hardly OUCH!)
- meet e leaders at e church for lunch & fellowshipping
- i was touched by their gifts & love
- took pics and wnt to changmai
- wnt to shopp there (sad tht i didnt shop)
- we bought a bag for tian
- so swt of thm to pick us upp (zhige, oli, vinc, agust, pc, ck, )
- home swt home

woahhs.
this mission trip i learn how to get out of my comfort zone.
i learn to speak in thai. (sawatdee ka, ka knub ka, shui jing jing)
i learn to be patient.
i learn to be courageous.
i learn to help & ask qns.
god always bless us.
god is always beside us.
hope lampang 300!!!
prayyed hard for thm to grow.
hope there will be more young leaders rising upp.
hope tian learn e guitar well & lead his lambs & CG to e fullest.
spore team became unglam BUT we did grow.
AMEN!

F.G.P.L

2006-09-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

F.G.P.L

OH LORD!
i need you.
i am desparate.
help mie papa.
evrything doesnt seems right.
since i got attachment.
there is sth missing in my life.
i felt sth is empty.
my life isnt fullest.
i didnt have time with you.
i disobey you.
maybe i am lost.
i missed soo much event.
i miss CG.
i miss my sistas.
i nvr gettx to talk to thm for a period of time.
i was sadd.
time doesnt seems right.
maybe my work time is vry long.
it clashes with soo many stuffs.
my sowing plans doesnt goes right too.
my contacts isnt tht responsive.
it just dnt goes right.
one of thm coming for service.
i was soo happy but guess what.
she last min got interview.
i prayyed hard tht she canns make it this wk.
got soo many things to plan and think abt.
LORD, guide mie!
i realised my faith level is low.
i remember what pastor jeff said.
we must have faith in evrything.
i felt shaky whn things failed.
i am afraid.
with GOD, evrything will be possible.
AMEN!
i made up my mind.
i will spent time with god no matter what happens.
i will obey his word.
i will repent frm my sins.
YESH, i will do it!
THREE!
i must have faith in my contacts and myself.
although they give mie cold shoulder.
although they seems to aviod mie.
i shld nt be discourage by thm.
i will tryy my best.
doris canns make it on thurs!
god answered my prayer. (:

yesterday meet yiwei after my tuition.
we wnt isle cafe.
chatted loads.
e bros thn joined us.
waited for time to pass.
laopo cut her hair!
soo KE-WAI-NEI.
i will still lorves herr.
i just lorve e time whn all of us gather in e auditorium with GOD.
pastor jeff preaching was powerful.
prayyed for rachelle.
faith.grace.peace.love.
AMEN!
after service, we wnt starhub.
guess tht we missed e place.
michelle and tiffany are nice gurls.
hadd great time with thm.
after dinner, we wnt to play pool.
first time play for soo long.
i have improved!
thannks shifu!
its 11 plus and we are walking on e streets.
saw js they all.
took e train with thm together.
hadd a short chatting with leanne.
and my nursing mate in christ-faith.
all e NEL peeps.
COOL!
wnt heph's hse at serangoon.
e bros wnt to meng yu's hse.
andd e rest wnt home.
webcam with xue.
played guitar and p&w.
WHEEE!
i knw how to play lrs.
lorves my nemo.
read one chapter of my bk.
watched my korean show on youutube.
wnt to slp after tht.
i think is already 4 plus.
i squeezed with herr in e cosy bed.
RING RING!
morning call laopo, xue and sam.
wnt back to slp.
guess all of us are LAZY BUM.
hadd a fruitful dayy!

today stayed at home.
done half of my compre paper.
i guess i shld practise more.
e environment isnt suitable for studying.
will my parents understand ?
i hope they canns see my change.
i am tryying to greet thm.
i said thank you! ^^
"good morning!" is still hardd.
i will take one step by one step.
until e day whn e household is saved.

*snoring.

2006-08-31T00:56:00.000+08:00

*snoring.

*SLEEPY mood.
because of e morning shift, i nvr had consistent qt.
i dnt want to disobey papa.
papa, give mie strength to obey your words.
but my brain just dnt function well.
managed to woke upp today.
morning call this bro.
thn took train to novena.
but guess what.
i thought i will be early today.
i took e wrong direction and was kind of punctual.
i was too tired and i walked in e train blurrly.
marina bay is scary.
i was quite shocked as it looks scary.
reached there and had to listen to e reports.
two new patients.
wahhs.
they are big sized which need assistant.
learnt new knowledge everyday.
i am soo tired evrydayy.
i knw whys is she in e same ward as mie.
papa wants mie to treat evryone equally.
accept one's self character.
i used to hate herr.
i used to gossip and talked at herr.
papa help mie soo much.
patrick ask mie a thinking qn after i wipe e patient's backside.
did you quarrel with e patients? (NO)
did you quarrel with your parents? (YES)
thn whys are you treating e patients better? (errrh. is diff.)
what if one day your parents are your patients? (i will treat thm even better)
WOWW!
what a powerful qn.
this qn lead mie to think even deeper.
abt how i cherish my parents.
thanks patrick!
tmr is his last day at medical ward.
ITE is more of practicals.
COOL!
finally i got afternoon shift.
but i am vry sadd.
i cant make it for ktv at kimberly's hse and CG on fri.
that is our first formal CG.
arrrgh!
soo many events and outings crashed with my time.
no sowing this wk but wenping is coming on sat. (YIPPES!)
oh FATHER!
i need you.
i am desparate to grow and have breakthroughs.
i want to serve you even more in evry way.
i want to work hard with NPians together.
papa, i need your strength to help mie.
help mie to handle e roles well.
i prayyed for breakthroughs.
i prayyed for strength, courage, confident and wisdom.
help mie in my sowing and contacts too.
i want to thannked joella for such a fast response.
most importantly, is i lorves my PAPA. (:

tiredd outtx.

2006-08-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

tiredd. outtx.

tired outtx.
yesterday had orientation.
wnt to TTSH at 8am.
had "lectures" to attend.
*YAWNS.
after tht we had lunch break.
thn have to go to e ward.
some of thm wnt to e amk hosp.
e nurse brief us here and there.
ms.mary stevens also show us arnd.
stayed in e ward and look arnd.
observe and ask qns.
wahhs.
i found a cute doctor.
OOPS.
he's soo cute.
he's soo easily spotted.
at 4pm, it ended.
wnt to meet NPians at clementi.
bought augustine a cake.
HARPPIE BIRTHDAE!
had teaching by sam thn.
many events coming during holiday.
after meeting, some stayed to watch e dvd.
some played majong.
took e order and they wnt to buy our dinner.
it took a total of 45mins i guess.
we watched and eat at e same time.
WOWW!
finally e show ended and we took cab home.
first stop: toa payoh-donald
second stop: bishan-rachelle
third stop: serangoon-heph
last stop: hougang-mie
nowadays is e youngest who send e oldest home.
HAHAS. (:

todayy i was late.
arrrgh!
took cab and JAM.
late by 15mins and thannked god.
e sister is nice.
after assgining, we wnt to our own cubicle.
nobody is there to assist mie.
slowly, became more busy.
patrick is a nice guy frm ite.
he taught mie many stuffs.
learnt many skills todayy.
i collected sputum!
i did parameters and blahs blahs.
my shoe is irritating mie.
my toes are in pain.
OUCH!
hadd different breaks.
two patients can be discharged.
i am soo happy for thm.
by seeing e smile on their face, i felt warmth.
some of thm are soo cute.
there's one tht will slap yr face.
there's one will say thanks you.
in hosp, anything will happen.
saftey IMPT!
ms.mary stevens had research for us to do.
all of us like soo tired, cant wait to go.
i also want to thankked e gurl tht gave mie her bag.
after work, wnt to chinatown meet sam.
sheperding=dnt have.
ate jing jing. (YUMYUM!)
wnt arnd there and played pool.
i nearly win him.
i hope tmr i wont be late agains.
with three clockes, shld be okays right ?
prayyed to papa. XP

an encounter!

2006-08-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

an encounter!

hoohoos.
yesterday hadd a wonderful time.
cooked spaghetti after tution.
wnt to meet yiwei at bk.
after writing cards, we wnt to buy present.
i lorve going to lifebkshopp.
saw cindyy there too.
finally we decided to buy e cd.
thn wnt to fetch yiwei's contact.
she's frm myanmar, currently studying at SP.
i always look forward to sat. (:
today got quite a number of contacts.
GOOD!
i want to see a lot a lot evry week.
gettx to knw a lot of peeps.
wheee!
yuna accepted christ!
although she may nottx be in NP but i am so harrpie.
after service, NS and NP wnt to glutton's bay.
took bus and e uncle ask us to alight.
we had to walk all e way to esplanade.
whn i am suppose to cross e road, i look at e wrong direction.
and e moment i turn arnd, so many lights shone on mie.
i stunned and walked away.
i knw i done sth wrong.
that was so CLOSE!
thannked god!
reached there and saw DIs.
bought pineapple rice but dnt have e pineapple.
i was kinda sadd, sommore 6 bucks.
shared with squirrel.
YUMYUM!
after eating, we wnt to watch show.
e singing was soo nice.
*CLAPPS
thn wnt home with squirrel.
todayy stayed at home.
thn wnt to toa payoh for dinner.
YUMMY!
while eating, i smelt smoke.
i thought is coming frm e stall.
but is FIRE!
almost evryone CHIONG to see what happen.
my family andd i were so farnie.
i will remember e scene whn we are eating.
HAHAS.
e smoke affected our dishes and appetite.
we hack care and eat as fast as we could.
mum still wnt to join e crowd. LOLS.
fire engine came and e peeps are gone.
one of e table take away their dishes.
there's a big fire at e next blk.
this is e first time my sisters and i saw a big fire.
we took pics and video.
soo farnie.
wnt to walk arnd at e central.
on e way home, dad's car got a bit of problem.
but thannked god.
we hadd a safety journey.
there's an attachment coming.
there's a leadership camp coming.
there's a chalet coming.
there's a BBQ coming.
there's a mission trip coming.
WOWW!
my holidays is filled with these.
plus sowings, meetings and outings.
i want THREE!
i want to serve him more more more!
one unit, 170 souls!

holidayy starts!

2006-08-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

holidayy starts!

yesterday wnt to sch at 10am.
do evanx in lib first.
prayy to my papa first.
e first one was WAHHS!
made mie refresh too.
herr name is same as another gurl too.
COOL!
continue to fish!
kar came lerrs.
we wnt atrium.
vry few peeps.
but we will tryy our best to fish.
WHEEE!
orzebet thn joined us.
i've got 8 fishes.
after tht, bought some food to eat.
i took bus to bartley sec.
what a hot weather andd i am wearing BLACK.
stupid construction site.
i took bus 11.
thn took bus 240.
waste my money.
phew!
papa blesses mie.
i was nt late.
i had headache and i felt sleepy.
ARRRGH!
i am nervous whn tht examiner look at mie.
i tryy to have eye contact with thm.
i stumbled and mess e whole thing.
i said e wrong things and i forgot to use those words.
even e first line also wrong.
e pic conversation was so eeeks.
i dnt knw what happened to mie.
my conversation was in a mess.
e angmoh like nt interested.
GOSH!
i shld have said i still got things to add on.
i regretted!
i screw upp e whole oral.
i felt so disappointed andd sadd.
with utan's encouragement msg.
with kar andd orzebet help.
with hephzibah words.
with evryones'.
with prayyers.
with papa by my side.
i still didn't do good in my oral.
let papa do e rest.
i must do well for paper one and two.
i must nt waste my parents money.
i must nt disappoint mrs.servos and my friends.
most imptantly is papa andd myself.
i want to glorify andd pleases him.
wnt home andd eat choc.
i knw i will feel better after eating.
too badd there is no ice cream in my fridge.
FAT FAT FAT!
vinc bought tht choc mint is nice.
yumyum!
i felt so much better.
called mrs.servos to tell herr abt my oral.
she also said e same thing: do well in yr paper 1 and 2!
ohyahhs.
so excited to hear frm kar abt chalet.
too badd i have attachment.
but i will go, GO!
i cant wait for next wed. (:
isaiah 40:29-30, 41:10

today is my last paper!
i think this is e easiest among e 5 papers.
only this canns make it?
ate ben&jerry ice cream with ty.
wnt to city hall to meet sam.
yummy soup!
learnt sth vry vry impt!
i'm gonna jot it down.
had fruitful time!
wnt to walk arnd.
andd we met zul, xueping and my laopo.
ARRRGH!
both of thm wnt sun tanned.
i miss sun tanning soo much.
i've got 4 mths nvr go sun tanning.
andd 5 mths nvr watch movie.
soo pathetic!
wnt to e "attitiude" shopp.
zul bought a vry vry COOL jacket.
he really lorves it loads.
wheee!
we wnt mileunium walk agains.
todayy was so windy.
hadd grt time fellowship.
finally hadd time with laopo too.
lorves her loads.
i lorves everyone!
played with water. (:
wanted to take pics but too badd.
no more zul's rockstar mtv and charles with 3 angels.
tried to pull sam down but 3 of us hadd no more strength.
canns imagine how "strong" he is?
there are 2 red lobsters between us.
one rockstar andd one marlboro.
SOO FARNIE!
crapps andd crapps.
abt e buildings, abt marlboro.
i will eat tht mint ice cream someday.
andd tht yummy choc!
flexible, adapt to abrupt changes.
influence peeps arnd mie.
i wanna save souls. xD
tmr gonna play pool with bros and sistas.
gonna celebrate after tht.
WHOO!
cindy's contact, huiping accepted christ through phone.
SOO COOL!
harppie for herr.
but it also means tht all of us have to buck upp.
ONE UNIT!
170 SOULS!
i've so many things to do.
i lorve reading testimonials.
i want to dream big for him.
i want to serve him fully.
i want to sing to him.
prayed for beautiful vocal.
everything is possible with papa arnd.
GAMBETTE!
papa is always beside mie.
papa pour wisdom whn i am doing e paper.
papa encourage mie whn i need him.
john 10:10-13

ZAIisYOU!

2006-08-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

ZAIisYOU!

COOL!
woke upp at 930.
wnt to sch to meet utan.
canns see tht she is vry vry tired.
after photocopying.
utan brought mie to see powerful bks.
woww!
i borrowed two.
hopefully i will complete it before i slp.
HAHAS.
utan ate duck rice so i tear e papers.
fast fast, no time.
so excited yet scared.
first time doing evanx.
one by one.
we started at e deadly slope there.
that is where utan meet hephzibah.
SOO COOL!
i will e scene where i take e pink umbrella under e hot hot sun.
andd three of us inside there talking.
nice to meet a china gurl.
e longest talk i hadd for today.
its my turn lerrs.
god sent me 2 gurls to train myself.
they are frm SIM.
i like so nervous, dnt knw how to continue.
errrrh . . .
utan gave feedbacks.
we wnt library, cooler.
"TITITI!"
utan caught by e sensor.
target target!
i approach a gurl while walking.
always remember e objective.
utan wnt to meet friends to zoo.
so i continue after writing.
wnt to e orchard rd there, found one.
walk here and there, there and here.
left sch at 2pm and wnt to friend's hse.
wooahs.
six contacts for todayy.
shall work hardd tmr. (:
reached malina's hse.
she got loads of black color clothes.
i brought home a big bagg.
thannks my friend!
just read davine's blog with tht sadd nice song.
haven cried for soo long already.
andd todayy i was tearing.
but i wont let my emotions ctrl mie.
just this time, let mie be.
i canns see my ex-sheperd and herr sheep relationship is better and better.
i am harppie for thm yet heart pain.
my heart hurts evrytime, i have to admit tht.
i miss e times we hadd last time.
e sheperdings, e bus rides, e dinners, e sentosa, e pooling.
to my beloved ex-sheperd, jean:
whn changed happened, you said changes are always for e better.
yupps. i agree.
whn it happened, i realised how much i lorve and cherish you.
i learnt frm you loads frm this few mths.
you're always there for mie.
yr words of encouragement, yr actions and lorve you gave.
i will remember how you touched my life.
i will learn frm sam and absorb all.
you will see me taking care of peeps.
i knw you will take cares of davine vry well. (:
you're a strong sister.
i lorve yr faith-filled and ZAI spirit.
i will always remember NP4 andd YOUU!
yr fav verse: colossians 3:23

JUST DO IT! [[=

2006-08-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

JUST DO IT! [[=

wahhs.
finally have time to blogg.
just finished studying PAS.
finally i have sth in my brain.
am i busy?
todayy had study cg at 130.
meet orzebet in e morning.
bought cake thn wnt to wrapp e brain.
HAHAS.
both of us really have grt time togther.
wanna studyy but guess no time already.
desiree and i ate kfc for lunch.
wnt to herr hse to prepare.
i finally played e guitar agains.
it seems soo long.
i want to learn during e holiday.
utan and bat came.
we kept quiet andd bo chap thm.
they nvr knock e door thn just stand outside there chat.
i ovrheard their conversation.
WAHAHAS.
they wnt upp and downn. lols.
utan is vry high todayy.
its time to P&W.
i felt so happy to P&W him.
ask andd you'll receive.
after tht we started to studyy.
SHHHHH!
linda is a strong gurl frm what i see.
hope tht she canns join us vry vry soon.
KAR finally came with e bulletin.
but we guess wont be using already.
e plan starts!
i wnt down to 7-eleven with cindy to buy choc.
muhahahas.
she believed me!
there were so many zhuang kuang.
short of one candle, e wrapper nt enough, candles no tht thing.
utan really think OUT OF E BOX!!!
opened e door, cindy.
HARPPIE BIRTHDAYY! (:
she was indeed shocked.
choc cake, yumyum!
open present time!
one layer after one layer.
she saw e brain-created by orzebet.
she used a knife to saw e brain into half.
if i got camera, i will take all e pics.
finally, is a cute, pinky, piglet with diaper.
one more cake left.
we played "hi ezekial, yes ezekial, tell ezekial".
utan kept changing e format.
"you are beautiful", "i know i am", "i lorve herr".
changed to table game.
OOPS.
i sure lose in this game, i knew it.
e cake belongs to me and i am e "winner" agains.
really hadd grt grt time at amk.
tmr going sch to evangelise.
be courage, be e first to step outtx, be fearless.
seize opportunity, take risk, accept failure.
JUST DO IT!
colossians 3:23

a m a z i n g .

2006-08-14T02:25:00.000+08:00

a m a z i n g .

HAHAS.
woke upp at 8am to morning call.
woke upp at 930 to call laopo.
woke upp finally at 1100.
studied a bit andd teach my sis.
ate lunch and wnt outtx.
meet sheperd at cityhall.
we suppose to have sheperding.
but change to informal one or even is a outing.
WHEEE!
walked to marina square.
such long time nvr play bowling lrs.
so excited to trash him.
utan, fel andd desiree, e birthdae gurl came.
soo we waited and waited for soo long.
even donald and benson came.
finally we can start a game.
donald is pro at it.
dnt see he so skinny worr.
i won sam e first round.
lennon andd meihwa came.
didnt knw he is also a pro.
but my standard dropped after tht.
dnt knw what happen also.
my mood also changed.
that's so weird.
maybe because of my flu.
our team lost to theirs.
i had e lowest score.
we suppose to treat thm drinks.
utan is is happy whn she hold e weight 10 ball.
she get e hold of it and wahhs.
that's a impt point of scoring too.
they wnt for dinner and i wnt home.
hadd great time with thm.
just now, one of my sec friend told me nt to be a die hard christian.
he is a chirstian andd he want to tip me. -_-
he said he's once a die hard christian.
he say dnt put too much faith in him, reply more on yrself.
he say god is nvr 100% always with us.
he say if god was...whys is e world so bitter?
why r there disasters spreading & plagues ravaging, & he being all so great is nt doing anything?
whys do ppl exp pain, being outraged of their modesty, was tht god's plan? if yes, thn god is tht powerful. if no, tht means he is not 100% there.
guess what?
i totally disagree with him.
evry single sentence he said, i think is wrong.
i have faith in him and he's 100% always with us.
if you have faith in him, if you believe him, e world is nt bitter but swt.
whn there are disasters & plagues, IF nobody seek god, IF nobody prayed, god cant do anything.
one tht experience god's lorve will live a fullest life.
i really lorve GOD loads.
AMEN!

e v e n g r e a t e r .

2006-08-13T02:38:00.000+08:00

e v e n g r e a t e r .

YAWNS!
i m supposed to slp now.
but i wanted to blogg.
woke upp early in e morning 8am.
wnt for tuition.
last lesson of oral.
i practised pic and conver.
phew!
god bless me.
after tht bought kfc for sis.
wnt to meet heph they all at BK.
after we eat, we study there.
i was dozing off after eating e pills.
arnd 4pm, 4 peeps frm NP2 wnt to holy comm preparation
so funn in e 'toiet'.
enjoyed e wafer and e grape juice.
wheee!
we are e potential ones.
so COOL.
wwearing gloves and masks.
finito!
desiree tmr's birthday.
we gave herr a big big minnie mouse balloon.
which made herr so paiseh.
OHHS.
dao bao also have balloon.
but is winnie e pooh by herr sheperd.
so nice of herr.
i lorve today service a lot.
i nowadays are growing in lorve with P&W.
i sing a new song to lord.
i sing with conviction, devotion, commitment.
i sing with all my heart, mind, soul.
he is just so awesome!
i lorve herr spirit.
even though her leg haven fully recover,
she jump with one legg and lead so WELL.
CLAPPS!*
pastor jeff is always so farnie.
pastor jasmine cut herr hair.
is PRETTIE.
lorves hearing testimonies frm others.
believe in him, act on yr faith, rely on e holy spirit's power.
hope michelle enjoyed and come back to god.
cant wwait for mission trip.
but exams come first.
studyy smartt and work hardd tivona !
wnt to meridian for dinner.
ate dessert and durian cake.
yumyum!
lorves laopo!
am in deep lorve with GOD.
john14:12

STUDYY! ^_^

2006-08-10T15:50:00.000+08:00

STUDYY! ^_^

woww!
i am early today.
RING RING!!!
i woke upp and wnt back slp.
HAHAS.
woke upp at 10am.
look through e pages agains.
thn wnt to sch to meet thm.
ate lunch at sim food court again.
i m perspiring, dnt rush me.
for this prac exam, i m quite confident.
after e eight stations, we started to discuss.
ohwells.
i was pulled down frm upp there.
my mood changed totally.
guess i had 8/16.
is such a simple and short exam, whys?
"do yr best andd god will do e rest".
i asked myself, have i done my best?
e qn is "how is consider e best?"
i guess i nvr put much effort in it?
i m just feeling grumpy, sadd, disappointed.
whys m i so affected by it?
tivona, dnt let yr emotions rule ovr you!
its only 2pm, i dnt wanna go home.
but i cant find anyone to accompany me.
how sadd canns this be?
i just need time to cool down.
listen to songs made me feel better.
after reading his word, i felt better too.
hephzibah once told me abt making decisions and 100% VS 0%.
i made a decision.
i making a timetable to study.
i shall and MUST follow it.
one day after one day, exams are nearer and nearer.
i still have eng oral exam.
OHGOD!
help me to overcome all these.
with you, all things are possible.
and i knw i must do my part first.
prayed for e peeps who felt stress.
prayed for e peeps tht had made decisions.
prayed for e peeps tht believe 100%. ((:

POWERFUL! xP

2006-08-10T02:00:00.000+08:00

POWERFUL! xP

WOAHHS!
i received sth powerful today.
i felt so blessed.
at first, e shopping with my sis was cancelled.
and i have more time to study, although i want to shopp.
suddenly, my dear sister called me.
she asked for my address.
i thought she will pop upp e second time.
thn i am one of her interview person.
i was happy to recieve her call.
after a while, lennon called.
he asked for my unit no and open e door.
HAHAS.
i was indeed surprised.
although i knw what is e present.
e POWERFUL alarm clock was green in color.
e alarm is LOUD!
so LOUD tht i think e whole building will tremble.
i really thannked him loads.
with this clock, i wont be late anymore.
thannked GOD too!
tmr is aap prac exam.
i tried drawing, but still so much to remember.
prayed tht those i knw will come outtx.
and GOD will make mie e head nt e tail.
i will trust in him and study smart.
all e best to my classmates!

FISHING. =D

2006-08-08T00:44:00.002+08:00

FISHING. =D

OOPS.
i think this is e first time i failed to be an alarm clock.
maybe my phone got problem?
or i was too tired to hear e vibrations?
slept at 430pm.
woke upp at 6 plus i think.
thn i realised i didnt call someone.
DIE DIE!
e study time is ovr.
test is at 8am i think.
i felt so guilty.
take cab again because of e spoilt alarm clock.
although you dnt blame mie i still want to apologise.
cant imagine laopo nvr slp last night.
she's worse than mie.
woke upp at 10am again.
ironed my uniform.
cut my nails.
all because of e prac exam.
bought lunch for sis and i.
wnt to sch to meet ty and mal.
i dnt like wearing e uniform.
so many peeps looking at mie.
ARRRGH!
waited for an hr.
heard fr jimmy tht will be tested BP taking and IV removal.
i was happy to hear tht. (:
wnt in at 4pm with thm.
waited and waited.
i was quite nervous.
sitting outside e rm, ty say change scenario.
nvrminds take this time to pray.
phew!
felt more calm.
wnt in and e examiner is lenient.
although she asked qns, but she smiles.
had some mistakes.
she helped in some ways but who knws whether she will minus marks.
i guess i will pass but maybe border line.
finally finished prac exam.
felt more relax.
wnt to meet yiwei at atrium.
i really thought we go fishing.
i felt so sad, i nvr fish before.
HAHAS. farnie ?
now i knw gone fishing got 3 meanings:
1) to catch fish
2) evangelism
3) a place to eat
waited for evryone and wnt fel's hse there.
so sadd, e place closed.
in e end we wnt KAP mac.
after eating, sam had teaching.
learnt sth today.
i must apply! xP
wnt home with desiree.
we are like dumbs.
waving for e cab for so long.
somemore a gurl snatch our cab.
but GOD gave us another one tht is infront of hers.
HAHAS.
tmr will be a long day i guess.
hope tht i can end early so tht i can reach cck asap.
i cant wait for e party!!!
pool, ktv andd yummy food by kimberly.
although i unable to invite any friends, i will stay positive.
WHEEE!
studying, planning, sowing, medidating, fishing . . .

S E L F.

2006-07-31T00:44:00.000+08:00

S E L F.
BOOO!
i finally blogged.
didnt knw i have so many fans and supporters.
secs, mins, hours, days, months.
wohhs.
many many things happened.
i've been water baptized on 160706.
wheee !
the old has gone, the new has come.
wfl class had ended.
but i believe tht all of us had learnt to be word-centered.
one of e leader promise to made sth or treat us but failed to.
so he decided to make tiramisu.
yumyum !
his skills was so pro.
no recipe=own recipe.
yesterday service was so great.
i lorve service so so much.
he always touched my heart through evrything.
we didnt have any visitors.
could see tht some of us are sad.
"come on! look on e brighter side!"
i hope for e best, hope tht god will do e rest.
but sometimes it just happen to be another way.
something's wrong.
hephzibah and i have chattings and ponderings.
we decided on sth. (SHHH!)
we believe in him, YESH!
after service, we wnt meridian to eat.
hephzibah and i gave bros and sisters swtscumchoc.
just hope they will lorve it.
hope tht it will made them feel better. ((:
ate $3 per piece of pizza.
didnt manage to catch e movie with others.
so some of us wnt to play pool.
along e way, heph, desiree and i sang songs.
we had clapps* frm peeps.
HAHAS.
wnt to a corner to give comments to paul with e singing.
he has a good vocal.
GO FOR IT!
heph and i have a new pool shifu.
we lorve pooling and wanted to learn more.
had a fruitful time with some NP bros and sisters.
today wnt to e membership class.
YWCA not YMCA!
had phototakings.
pastor dinah and pastor ben had talk to us.
17feb 1991 was e five peoples' service.
they planted churches evrywhere.
faith is nt transferable, it is by own will.
we shld have e desire and responsibility to grow in him.
SELF!!! (die to self)
remember tht none of us walk alone.
we follow and walk in god's will and his heartbeat.
we are suppose to hand in e testi.
heph and mie type till 5am.
WAHHS. (haven complete thou)
had fruitful time with 3 nyp sisters during dinner.
wheee !
lorve them so much.
we enjoyed taking and eating all e foods.
all e laughters and smiles.
wnt home with heph.
we chatted and chatted.
we missed e past NP4.
we missed evryone.
we just want to grow.
we want NP to grow.
nowadays, many things had happened.
and exams are arnd e corner.
pray continuously until sth happen.
pray hard tht he will made all things better.
makes me think of a song.
"i want to grow, i want to grow grow grow!"
loads to write but i need to sleep.
tmr having prac test.
tue having POP quiz.
bless and pray for my bros and sisters.
2 corithians 4:16

e v e r l a s t i n g .

2006-06-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

e v e r l a s t i n g .

urrrgh.
i hate cramps.
save mie GOD !
i think i'm dying soon.
OUCH !
yesterday wfl, i learnt loads.
knew more peeps.
swt potato is so YUMMY !
service was great.
yippes.
i enjoyed loads.
i admit i'm affected by ahpoh.
i was worried for herr.
she seems like nt enjoying.
after her msg, i am glad.
she enjoyed andd knew many friends.
pastor jeff is farnie.
god is a big-kind-hearted father.
god is an understanding father.
i worried abt stuffs.
what shld i do GOD ?
guide mie andd tell mie e way.
help mie GOD !
tmr is e starting of attachment.
YISHUN !!!
i have to wake up early and travel thre.
excited yet worried.
i want to let peeps knw tht:
I LOVE GOD !!!
i want to cherish evrything.
evrything is possible with him arnd. ((:
isaiah 40:29-31

EVO RETREAT !!!

2006-06-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

EVO RETREAT !!!

hayys all.
i am back frm e evo retreat.
had fruitful time with all of them.
enjoyed very very much.
meet with jose first.
her father fetch us there.
so nice of him right.
thannks god for uncle.
is early in the morning 9 plus.
we reached tm mac.
sat there andd rot for an hr.
utan andd deb came too.
was so happy to see herr.
but she nt going with us. :(
finally squirrel and harry potter came.
we wnt to buy food andd stuffs.
pushing e trolley looks auntie.
heehees. ((:
we kept saying "BUDGET".
cannot buy too much stuffs.
we are nt staying in hotel.
we are done annd e price is 3865cents.
i took care of one tray of eggs.
such a "impt" task is for mie.
everyone reached thn we took bus to there.
reached aloha changi there.
looks so ulu andd creepy.
we played whacko first.
xuelin lead us.
next is 3 legged captain ball.
fel and i tied together.
OUCH !!!
we lost to them.
nvrminds next is tie balloons on legs.
we are suppose to step our opponents.
all of them so rough.
in e end we lost agains.
played captain ball again.
dnt knw whys with sam arnd, we will lose.
HAHAS. everyone complained.
evryone knws he is rough andd violet.
he hit squirrel right infront of her face.
our grp canns win but no strategy only.
we finally canns go in e ulu bungalow.
is big but all e utensils are SMELLY.
settled down and had a short skip by chee hock, xuelin, bingxuan.
then bingxuan had teaching.
we played 2 mini games.
then jeans's workshop.
we have to act e roles outtx.
our grp had no solutions.
OOPS.
fel hadd teaching too.
ended andd i want to cook.
but i am wanted to pay game.
three of us blindfolded.
we have to differentiate our lemon.
i still have time so i join them.
cut cut cut.
fry fry fry.
cook cook cook.
time is tight so we tried our best.
hope they will like it.
cooked three rounds.
we ate e vegetarian bee hoon.
yum yum !
thn sam's teaching in such a nice rm.
i love e atmosphere with aircon.
nice jobbs.
hadd p&w.
i lorve singing.
wheee !
it was soo powerful.
deb is on e phone listening.
misses herr.
thn we have to compose a song to present.
both grps snatching vincent.
but my grp compose first.
our fav verses plus melody.
then vincent came, evrything's done.
we are proud of it.
finally i canns bathe.
i hadd cold shower.
cause nobody help mie.
i felt refresh and nice.
some of them wnt outtx to buy stuffs.
some slping already.
wnt to watch soccer togther.
only vin, harrypotter, jose, utan, car and mie.
we thought spain will lose
e first goal we are lagging.
if mie and car nvr sing, will they goal ?
the reception of e tv is lousy.
mie and vincent had to raise our hands.
if cannot raise andd clapp.
we also tried snapping fingers.
we believe it works. HAHAS.
we jumped for joy.
curly haired guys, EEEKS !
didnt knw vin andd harrypotter are interested.
so ugly lohhs.
we knew e spain pose.
after match, no shows to watch.
jose andd car slping soon.
four of us played games.
paul, john andd sara game.
7up, table game, concentration.
utan andd vin have to shout "FIRE" tmr morning arnd e place.
car and jose joined in.
mie andd car have to dance tango.
phew !
i forfeit agains.
mie andd harrypotter dance salsa.
ARRRGH !!!
had rehearsals by teacher vin.
is already 6am.
woke them up at 7am andd only one woke upp.
huishi andd mie doing breakfast.
scalded myself evrywhere.
mosquitoes bites ervrywhere.
with e help frm vin, we completed.
made scrambled eggs too.
after evryone had eaten.
i was so high during e night but felt tired after tht.
present our songs to one another.
one praise. one worship.
i lorve our songs.
thier worship one is nice.
i lorve e chorus part.
we sang both of it also.
after tht dismissed lerrs.
packed up, cleaned upp.
took a bus back tm.
thn took a bus back hg agains.
fell asleep in e bus.
YAWNS !
brought lunch home with sister.
i learnt a lot frm e teachings.
although is only 2 days 1 night.
is such a funn experience.
lorve np4.
lorve np unit.
lorve hope church.
lorve GOD.
psalms 139:7-8
psalms 138:1-2

i will seek you
seek your kingdom
andicas all my troubles on you
we'll hold on to our promise
never let you go

and here i'll stand before you
praising my lord and friends

cos everything is possible with you
cos everything is possible with you
cos evrerything is possible with you you you you you !

youaremagnificent.

2006-06-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

y o u a r e m a g n i f i c e n t .

WHEE !
i nvr manage invite anyone to service.
i admit i was kinda disappointed.
but i was in high spirit.
had tuition yesterday.
teaching oral already.
i must improved.
i must be thick skinned.
after tht, i wnt to buy breakfast for my sisters.
yum yum !
wnt to meet evan first.
frm her, i knw sth is wrong with our friend.
we will help herr.
we will let herr knw we are there for herr.
really hope you are okays.
i am interested in buying guitar.
who got lobang ?
meet jose at there.
we wnt for wfl tgther.
some of us are in e same class.
COOL !
we managed to mingle well with our grp.
we are suppose to advertise sth.
spent time thinking andd chatting.
i knew 5 more new sistas and brothers.
hadd great time doing a short presentation.
"jesus jump ovr e wall".
e prize is MERCI choc.
i am interested in it but i cant eat.
well, hui ting teaches us.
hadd a break and donald teach us.
after class, we wnt starhub.
actually, i am nt a good counselor.
i tried my best to help.
fel made jose laughed.
all of us were so worried.
wnt to 'party with us' with xiaohong.
she bought swt for mie.
SOO SWEET of herr.
e wonka stick.
i wnt evrywhere kachiaoing others.
i became vry high.
deb's, kar's, zg's classmate, called shine.
i kept 'shine, shine, shine'.
such nice name she hadd.
thn we wnt to pick kenneth and jun ming.
kenneth is a farnie guy lahhs.
he cant remember names.
he canns take 2 weeks to remember a name.
kept saying i am mei ling.
arrrgh.
wnt for service.
i lorve p&w.
no matter how serious is my sore throat, i will shout.
i will sing outtx loud to praise him.
james preaching abt 'god's men'.
gurls shout 'charge'.
guys shout 'CHARGE'.
thats e difference.
HAHAS.
really enjoy loads evry sat.

today wnt to cut hair.
wnt to grandma hse to celebrate fathers' day.
hadd loads of food.
yum yum !
but i forget sth.
mingle arnd with them.
ate yummy fruits.
wnt home after tht.
e stars are shining brightly.
wahhs.
tmr is evo retreat.
i cant wait for it.
excited for it.
i know it will be a success.
gonna hlp outtx with e food.
i lorve to stay ovrnight with friends.
thannked god for erything.
thannked god for great bros andd sistas.
thannked god for e food.
thannked god for e water and electricity.
thannked god for energy.
1 cor 10:23

t u r n a r o u n d l i v i n g .

2006-06-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

t u r n a r o u n d l i v i n g .

whoas.
so long nvr blog.
i am here to update.
wheee !
yesterday had great time.
morning call np4.
nemo still asleep.
i let herr slp more due to late slp.
meet them in sch at 12pm.
wnt to eat lunch first.
crapps and laughters.
walked to library.
fel:look at e right side, there's an animal named hs.
xiaohong andd i burst into laughters.
i knw is badd to laugh but vry farnie.
WAHAHAS !
sam's teaching in e animal rm.
it teaches mie loads.
it made mie reflects.
after tht wnt round sch.
we wnt round praying.
its funn and enjoyable.
we had photographers, singers, crappers.
finished all e stations.
wnt to somerset by bus.
on e way there, practising pause songs.
yi wei must learn frm mie.
xiaohong andd i have so much things in common.
she always copy catt but i still lorve herr.
we sang tarzan song and old old songs.
HAHAS.
wnt to meet nic.
invited nic to service.
he mingle well with guys.
glad to see tht.
wanted him to enjoy.
i am in high spirit.
i love service soo much.
praise andd worshipping god.
totally into him.
pastor jasmine preaching.
enjoyed myself there.
wnt to starhub after tht.
some wnt sam's hse for "GOAL".
xiaohei go xiaoqi's hse "GOAL".
knew ji dan more.
e rest stayed there eat.
BOI BOI fishballs.
only yiwei andd nemo know.
gonna do an advertisement soon.
tune in to ZBF(ZE's BOIBOI fishballs) channel.
hadd gastric pain after eating.
OUCH !
crapps loads with them.
hadd great time.
wnt home with yiwei.
such torture i hadd on e way home.
i hate gastric pain.
SAVE MIE !!!

today stayed at home.
i cooked a feast lunch.
yumyum !
at night, wnt clarke quay.
ate seafood there with family.
yumyum !
wnt walk walk.
i lorve there.
whn i am down, i will go there.
CT over.
phew !
hadd a stressful period.
god guide mie through.
god help mie in evry way.
god is awesome !
holiday starts tmr.
although is only 14 days, i will treasure it.
spent e time with friends, sisters, family.
OOHyahhs. andd studies.
gonna plan nicely.
tmr going ice skating.
WHEEE !
my second time andd i gonna improve.
hoping many many will be there.
let's enjoy a fullest andd fruitful holidays tgther !
the lord is all i need i canns depend on him.
lam 3:24

Oo

2006-06-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

ripped frm fel's. ((:

01) what is e phone brand ?
samsung
02) what is e last 3 digits of your hp no ?
135
03) what does e 2nd msg in yr inbox says ?
a long good nites msg
04) who is e first person who comes up under M ?
malina
05) who's e last person you rang ?
sam
06) who was yr last missed call ?
huiwen
07) who's e 2nd person who comes under D ?
dawn
08) what does e last msg in yr inbox says ?
another long good nites msg
09) who comes under J ?
james, jane, jasmine, jean, jeramy, jeremy, jeslyn, jiajia, jiamin, jianlin, jim, jingjie, jingkai, jocelyn, joey, johannes, jolene, jolynn, jorris, josephine, julia
10) go to yr sent items - what does e 10th msg says ?
nil
11) who is e 4th person who comes under S ?
sean
12) who's yr network provider ?
M1
13) how many msg are currently in yr inbox ?
213
14) what do you have as yr backgrnd ?
NP4 pic
15) who's e 2nd person comes under R ?
rohaida
16) who do you have on speed dial 3 ?
donavan
17) if you r on pay as you go, how much credit you ve ?
nottx on prepaid
18) who's e first person comes under C ?
camille
19) how much bar of signal do you currently ve ?
full for reception andd batt
20) what do you have as yr main ringtone ?
always in vibrating mode

270506'

2006-05-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

270506'

hayys.
so long nvr blog lrrs.
such a long time.
how have i been ?
what a good question.
i canns only say busy.
days after days.
evryday wnt home late.
felt tired whn 1am came.
have to sleep early.
too many things tht happened.
dnt wanna be long-winded.
i lorve cg so much.
with three of them, evrything's GREAT !
enjoyed e times with evryone.
my classmates and sisters.
evryone is SUPER !
yesterday wnt for tuition.
bought cap.
NPs are supposed to dress retro andd hiphops.
wnt to prayer meet at 2pm.
i just lorve to praise andd worshipp.
i lorve to sing.
after tht, we wnt to eat.
i helped xiaohong makeup.
she is so pale.
lorve bring with them.
doryfish is nice.
slurps*
wnt to lifebkshop.
i lorve there.
i think i canns spent whole dayy there.
what a wonderful place.
wnt for service.
we cant be late.
cannot miss e dance part worrs.
WEEE !
so high with xiaohong.
jump and jump.
shout and shout.
praise and worship.
e dance performance is COOL.
good jobb !
i lorve dancing.
but i dnt think i canns.
talk abt success.
after preaching.
i saw evan and jasmine.
long time nvr see. (:
my mood swings slowly.
dont knw whys.
wnt to starhub.
slack till 9pm.
so i send rachel off.
saw my pri sch tchr.
so shocked and surprised.
my mood still kinda down.
all of us board e coach.
wahhs.
like so grand sia.
in e bus, xiaohong made mie high.
reached clementi.
wnt upp to sam's grandma hse.
e whole place is ours.
some play majong.
some in e kitchen preparing.
some infront of tv.
i helped outtx with e food.
curry smells nice.
all thannks to his grandma.
steamboat is ready soon.
fried luncheon meat.
fried hasbrowns.
so many food for us.
i didnt have e appetite.
so i start serving and cleaning.
wnt down to buy drinks and beer.
e guy wnt home and i ve to drink alone.
nice anyway.
bathed and i felt better.
learnt guitar frm colin.
crapps with all.
hadd fun times.
knw them better.
harry potter so farnie.
e cramped guy.
some played smack.
andd all became so high.
i felt giddy andd nt drunk.
thn all e gurls came tgther.
lets play truth or dare.
KPOers.
HAHAS.
huishi so kelian.
so many names for herr.
sharing is soo GREAT.
we lorve each other.
we spent 3hrs, nvr slp.
some wnt off early.
arnd 8 plus we wnt home.
2 sleepy logs are still there.
what a great dayy.
came back home and slpt 4 hrs.
i am soo tired.
tmr going for injection.
no prawns andd seafoods.
REMIND ME !
god is great.
god lives in us.
god lorves us in evry single way.
NPs ROCKS !
philippians 4:13.

n e e d a r e s t.

2006-05-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

n e e d a r e s t.

finally i came here.
its been three days i guess.
thurs had follow up at amk.
ate at MOS.
kind of miss e food thre.
fel's cg came too.
we sat togther.
played games together.
lilliput is 'xiao ren guo'.
BAA BAA looks like rachel.
fel cooked chicken wings and fried rice.
so nice of herr yahhs.
wnt home at 9 plus.

next day is holiday.
woke up early thn wnt sista's hse.
watched passion of christ.
touching yet cruel.
i knw more.
i will praise andd worship more.
visit esther next blk.
i m e intruder tht wnt in herr rm.
ate herr cookies.
yum yum !
took a bus to j8 thn.
meet hw andd evan.
so long nvr go outtx.
somehow e old ones are good.
is memorable.
ate at cafe cartel.
hw's manager is good hurr.
we've got free drink andd soup.
i was e one tht say grace.
nvrminds.
is my privilege.
WEEE !
yum yum yummy.
e bread thre is nice too.
joella thn came.
thannks for e gift.
we like it loads.
although my 'L' is missing.
it is still a complete LOVE.
crapps a lot with thm.
after tht we wnt shopping.
bought necklance andd shirt.
so COOL.
mine black, joella white, evan sliver.

back to today.
hadd tuition at 1030 agains.
OOPS.
i forgot abt my compo.
i didnt do andd she still praise mie.
HAHAS.
meet with sista andd wnt somerset.
saw e hunk.
see how lucky sista is.
i was so so so jealous.
she've got fate with him.
walk arnd OG thn go prayer meet.
jasmine nt arnd.
e atmosphere is HIGH too.
after tht wnt to subway.
our meatballs.
YUM YUM !
wnt to flea market.
didnt buy any stuffs.
nt enough time plus no mood.
i want shoppings !
meet xiaosiao.
wahhs.
xiaosiao, xiaohei and xiaoqi.
all wore skirts andd is GORGEOUS.
i wnt arnd promoting ZIA.
'zejun international airline'.
so proud of myself yeas.
wnt in nextus at 540.
praise andd worship.
watched e drama.
WAHHS.
they perfomed well.
CLAPPS !
jasmine preaching todayy.
many converts today.
happy for thm.
ended so we wnt starhub.
ate tomyam with xiaojian.
i lorve it because is spicy.
wnt home after eating.
NP4 unitedasONE.
although in 2 weeks time
xiaojian is leaving our grp,
we will still MISS herr.
ate supper agains.
become fatty within a night.
tmr is mothers' dayy.
what shld i do ?
evrything will be fine.
prayy for xiaosiao.
prayy for xiaojian.
prayy for xiaohei.
prayy for xiaohong.
prayy for xiaoqi.
prayy for NP unit.
prayy for HOPE CHURCH.
prayy for myself.
1corinthians 16:13.

e t e r n a l.

2006-05-06T23:54:00.001+08:00

e t e r n a l.

early in e morning.
hadd cramps.
wnt for tuition at 1030.
today is election dayy.
WEEE !
although i nv play a part.
i m excited for thm.
wnt home thn.
thannks sam for evrything.
thannks sista for e msg.
andd evrything you did for mie.
i lorve NP4 andd all.
lorving each other.
forgave others' sins.
repent frm my sins.
seek for forgiveness.
learn frm my mistakes.
dnt made e same agains.
wnt to grandma hse.
i lorve my uncle.
he concerned mie a lot.
kept saying 'nurse'.
all of us talk abt touring at dec.
hong kong, perth, malaysia, cruise ?
my holiday different frm thm.
i want holiday.
like take ages to have holiday.
i want to go relax.
needed a break somehow.
my leg pain for one week lerrs.
maybe going see doctor.
i cant run at all.
i hope things gonna be okays.
STAND FIRM !
'we were e reason tht he gave his life.
we were e reason.
tht he suffer and die.
to a world tht was lost.
he gave all he could give.
to show us e reason to live.'
i missed thm.
i missed service.
i missed prayer meet.
WP in aljunied lost.
but have a chance i think.
GOGOGO !
e prayers i hadd.
keep on praying.
sth will happen.
john 3:16.

b r e a k d o w n.

2006-05-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

b r e a k d o w n.

sighhs.
what a dayy !
yesterday is like breaking down.
woke upp at 545.
gave morning call.
meet with sista.
nearly late for lecture.
again, i dnt understandd e lesson.
wnt for tutorial.
hadd to do presentation soon.
wnt for lunch at sim.
all of us enjoyed laughing there.
shld be e first time sitting togthr.
i knw our relationship will be better.
thn wnt to library to slack.
sang songs in e rm.
loads of crapps.
hadd another lecture.
2hr break agains.
what a long dayy.
wnt to grandma hse.
thn wnt to library agains.
we talked abt ghost story in sch.
wnt for practical.
learn how to use crutches.
walking stick andd rom.
vry tiredd lerrs.
wnt for tennis at 5pm.
evry week, i felt so weird.
hadd to run 3 rounds agains.
my leg is pain.
still have to run here and there.
OUCH !
hy finally came.
i hadd no one to talk to.
i wonder how long canns i tahan.
hadd to go at 745.
too exhausted to walk anymore.
wanted to take a cab.
is it vry difficult ?
e pain and tiredness i hadd.
i tearedd.
guess i am weak after all.
no cabs for mie.
i prayed to god.
god hear my prayer.
e stress i hadd is so big.
through studies.
through family.
after listening to songs.
i cooled down slowly.
after watching shows.
i doze off.
i didnt realise.
when i woke upp is already 1pm.
i felt so heavy andd tiredd.
wnt back to slp thn.
today nt going service.
i lorve service but.
time will show mie.
god will show mie.
i believe.
i have faith.
mark 10:27

W O G.

2006-05-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

W O G.

today hadd lesson at 1pm.
so we decided to study.
meet with sista first.
COPY CATTS.
reached andd wnt library.
booked room at lvl 5.
DIAMOND worrs.
i nvr study.
i do mind maps.
at least i nvr waste my time.
wnt for lunch at canteen 2.
so crowded thre.
but e food is nice.
hadd lecture at lt50.
i seriously dnt understand.
have to study hardd lerrs.
thn have break.
wnt to shopping.
HAHAS.
bought a shirt at 3 bucks.
canns you imagine ?
i was so shocked.
tze yan bought one too.
NO MORE !
we are e last two ones.
so honoured.
walked to lt38.
walking evryday here andd there.
my legs are breaking.
eat more, work more.
NSL after tht was bored.
no hands on today.
hadd quiz instead.
got 9/10.
CLAPPS !
wnt library to wait.
climb to lvl 5 again.
thn had to come down.
meet with sista. ((:
walked all e way back to sim.
we ate there.
had follow upp there too.
hadd grt time yahhs.
thannks a lot.
without you, thre is no mie.
faith andd word of god.
my challenge for this week is repentence.
lets work hardd.
hadd tiring day evry single day at sch.
i need more more time.
let e clock move slower.
lorves each other.
QT lerrs.
amen.

s t r e s s.

2006-05-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

s t r e s s.

wahhs.
so so tiredd.
yesterday nvr come here.
done a bit of hw.
thn wnt to sleep.
i cant tahan.
ystrday after lessons, wnt library.
xiaosiao bluff mie.
how canns she ?
made mie xia suay.
but she is forgiven.
print outtx e bulletin.
wnt to eat hotdogs.
yum yum !
thn we three took bus.
long long journey.
all thannks to lala.
crapps all e way.
played games.
talking abt pissing stuffs.
libras' are e same.
WAHAHAS.
reached tht cc at kovan.
so good of xiaojian.
we wnt to eat at tangerine.
enjoyed ourselves.
brownie is nice.
evrything is nice.
saw vier thy all there too.
finish eating thn find a corner.
played game.
first time leading worrs.
guess i was e lousiest.
had grt laughters.
praises andd worships.
i lorve singing.
"i'm reaching for yr heart.
you hold my life in yr hand.
drawing mie closer to you.
i feel yr power renew.
nothing compares to this place.
where i canns see you face to face.
i worship you.
in spirit andd in truth."
always lorve cg.
deb shared her exp to mie.
wnt home after tht.
NP4unitedasONE.
thannks leader-xiaohei.
thannks guitarist-xiaojian.
thannks bulletinist-xiaosiao.
thannks god for evrything.
wht bothers mie:
my parents thinking;trust;believe in mie.
my studies.
i am so tired and stress.
but with YOU, i am fine.
lorves you.
amen.

NP4unitedasONE..

2006-05-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

NP4unitedasONE.

wahhs.
woke upp at 830.
nvrminds.
i treat it as a practice.
wnt to sista hse.
lorve herr rm.
have own rm is gd enough.
wnt kovan to buy ingredients.
saw allison.
damm happy.
we chat andd chat.
they joined band.
so COOL.
wnt back sista hse.
start to bake cookies.
WEEE !
we managed to did it.
is funn yet tiring.
first round was burnt.
OOPS.
second round was GOOD.
third round soso only.
evryone arnd mie have jie pi.
wahahas.
wnt city hall.
josephine sista and i wnt shopping.
gonna find our NP4 identity.
we lorve sports.
so so so happy.
we bought nike bottle.
too excited lerrs.
i lorve tryying caps andd sunglasses.
andd many stuffs.
while tryying, sam came.
hahas.
he got low paletes.
cant see tht he is sick.
army sommore.
sam's grp is zai manns.
NP won yesterday !
so so so happy.
300 bucks sia.
is worth it thou.
we wnt e high class place.
he bluff mie have chee chong fan.
i believed lohhs.
how stupid i am.
actually he is crappy also.
hadd choc cake.
yum yum !
hadd choc chip mint drink.
nice recommend by sam.
rachel came thn.
we crapps loads.
i won same three rounds.
i only have to pay 1/4.
which is 2 bucks.
i knw i will win.
NP4 united as ONE.
fel came too.
we wnt nici.
fel introduce boo boo.
HAHAS.
sista bought one for herr.
tht cant style hair de.
thn we wnt esplanade.
so crapps.
saw desiree there.
so shocked.
wnt home and saw darrling.
even more excited sia.
hugged herr. ((:
chat and chat.
shocked to hear e news.
keep in touch yahhs ?
i nvr chnged ?
hrmms.
i think i did lehhs.
i will grow slowly.
i believe i will.
tmr hadd cg at hg area.
first time worrs.
xiao jian requested.
looking forward.
tryy sleeping early frm today.
workers party GOGOGO !
i support you all.
influence by dad.
lorve today loads.
i lorve NP4 !
pray until sth happen.
amen.

2006-05-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		7
Receiving Gifts:		7
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

f r u i t f u l.

2006-04-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

f r u i t f u l.

hayys.
stayed at hm.
thinking of thm.
done my summary.
watched tv.
slack arnd.
have to start studying.
give mie motivation.
helpp mie concentrate.
helpp mie understandd.
wnt outtx with family.
saw vier they all.
so farnie.
wnt food court.
saw herr.
once made mie pissed.
once made mie angry.
once made mie crazy.
once agains.
she affected mie.
but i face it.
god tells mie to.
after tht, wnt shopping.
bought many stuffs.
wnt back home thn.
chat with sista.
HOORAY !
sam's grp won.
NP won.
so happy for thm.
i knw they will enjoy.
happy for all of you.
tmr going sista hse.
baking cookies i guess.
so long nvr bake.
its like since sec sch.
looking forward to it.
watched e video clips agains.
so touching.
i lorve god.
what a grt joy to ve such a frnd who leads my life.
you are always with mie.
evrything is possible with you arnd.
amen.

h u m b l e.

2006-04-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

h u m b l e.

woke upp at 930.
wnt for tuition thn.
is weird initially.
e grp is new to mie.
but i have no choice.
schedule too tight in sch.
after tht wnt sch.
general office nvr open.
no cert to take thn.
taken my new specs.
looks weird thou.
will gettx used to it.
had lunch cooked my mum.
yum yum !
wnt for prayer meet at 3pm.
i managed to go alone.
give myself a pat.
i am realy tiredd.
wnt subway with xiaohong andd fel.
first time eating subway's meatballs.
yum yum !
crapps loads.
rush back to cuppage.
ran andd ran.
mama san nearly vomitted.
we are nottx late.
phew !
today also many peeps.
good good.
sat with NP4.
i enjoyed singing.
i enjoyed evrything.
i lorve e video clip.
made mie cried 2nd time.
so touching.
wnt to starhub thn.
xiaojian forget my name. ):
she is e craziest.
made us laugh non stop.
ate fruits agains.
e drink so swt.
jorris so swt.
i lorves herr.
we four wnt togther.
but sista have to go back.
so we wnt station.
saw two gays.
yucks !
thannks sista for evrything.
thannks sista for e gift.
lorves herr.
tmr have event.
but is sunday.
too badd thn.
i think shld stay at home.
hope they enjoyed.
i am sadd.
but my heart is there.
pray for all.
i am real tiredd.
kept dozing off.
sleeping is really impt.
hoping evrything is fine.
amen.

passionate.

2006-04-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

passionate.

YAWNS !
woke upp at 545.
morning call sista.
its PA's job.
meet upp with herr.
board e bus at 630.
non aircon bus = sista's hates.
e reason was messy hairr.
knw it manns.
no bus sick.
reached there.
meet with them.
wnt for lectures.
gonna slp lerrs.
kept dozing off.
i hate e feeling.
vry tormenting.
half slp half awake.
need someone scare mie.
managed to be awake a while only.
hadd tutorials.
just chattings andd talkings.
no need any notes.
wnt to sim to eat.
oily stuffs.
kind of regrett.
wnt blk 16 with tze yan and them.
then blk 18.
such hot weather.
GRRR.
fifth day is like used to it.
NP4 de zai what. (:
wnt to buy concession.
wnt to library.
saw xiao hong.
so happy.
tze yan they all there.
so we shared e place.
xiao hong called mie.
like hide andd seek.
scary sia.
morning so eerie de.
sista there too.
so so so happy.
we crapps andd crapps.
i lorve them all.
i lorve NP4.
played e library orientation.
so lame.
but we learnt stuffs lahhs.
thannks karryn for e racket.
wnt blk 50 agains.
lao da took us to e long way.
nvrminds.
burning my calories away.
agains i felt slpy.
guess i lack of slp.
i need SLPs !
had practicals.
WEEE !
we lorve it.
but have to wear covered shoe.
tie your hair.
wash your hands.
learnt bed making.
learnt blanket making.
whn patients occupied andd nt.
is funn and easy.
sat on e wheelchair.
look outtx at e window.
i looks like depression patient.
actually it isnt gd to tease them.
but we are learning.
have to relax and enjoy !
raining lerrs.
prayed prayed prayed.
STOPP lerrs.
wnt for tennis training.
so weird initially.
no gurls.
waited waited waited.
coach came.
have to runn three rounds.
front, side andd back.
only one wear skirt run sia.
no face lerrs.
changed to shorts.
thn practise and practise.
sista andd karryn outside.
OOPS.
quite xia suay thou.
i saw e present frm sista.
so swt of herr.
lorves you. x)
rains agains.
we ran to e shelter.
hy came finally.
when e rain stopp, we played.
on our own yeas.
knew some ons peeps.
all pros still want learn.
hy and mie so lousy de.
pity cindy lehhs.
hy kept talking non stop.
arnd 730 we left.
no canteen opens.
only one small store.
ate there with hunks if have.
wnt home thn.
what tiring dayy.
closing eyes.
amen.

t i r i n g.

2006-04-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

t i r i n g.

wahhs.
traffic jam.
lucky i was punctual.
raining sommore.
had practical.
the tchr is good.
we played games.
introducing yrself with adjectives.
i am zealous zejun.
i think so.
easy easy lahhs.
16 peeps only.
after that lesson time.
its so interesting.
i lorve practicals.
i wanna have more more.
e model canns play de.
fixing e organs back.
hadd grt time playing with it.
still communicate with him lehhs.
nt badd hurr.
i dnt knw abt fixing brain only.
she taught andd i understand.
after that wnt for lunch.
wnt grandma hse agains.
i lorve herr cookings anyway.
hadd lecture at lt50.
dr.red is cute andd farnie.
he's a phillipino.
he hadd accent in talkings.
we are blur initially.
kept laughing and huh huh huh.
he copy our words.
understandd slowly.
will gettx used to it soon.
break for an hour.
do a bit of summary.
had practical agains.
learned how to move e patient.
how to carry to e wheelchair.
how to shift e patient.
is funn when hands on.
finally ovr.
meet upp with sista.
tronky time !
wnt kovan.
such long long journey.
having bus sick evryday.
i hate it.
meet vier they all.
six of us there.
its kor birthdaye.
HARPPIE BIRTHDAYE !!!
crapps andd chattings.
suaning andd ji-siaoing.
ate our dinner at pizza hut.
although is kovan only.
guess we enjoyed.
cake time.
darnn full.
fattening.
HAHAS.
hope kor is happy.
wnt home after tht.
kept feeling i ve loads of hw.
having headaches evryday.
having muscle aches evryday.
having stress evryday.
but i am okays. (:
nth is impossible.
have to start planning to study.
seems like time is nt enuff.
homeworks nt done yet.
tmr have tennis.
WEEE !
thannks karryn.
thannks sista.
hoping jes is okays.
tried my best to help.
but only she canns overcome it.
prayyed to god.
i m sry god.
amen.

t h a n n k s.

2006-04-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

t h a n n k s.

hrms.
actually i felt no gd today.
meet with them.
wnt for tutorials.
is gd knwing them.
is funn knwing crapps peeps.
so happy to see xiao^2.
heehees. (:
i admit i still have e feeling.
is like e past.
e lefting outtx feeling.
sth is just missing.
just no clicks with them.
i tried to forget.
kept myself busy is e best way.
lecturer is herr.
yippes.
she told us loads of others stuffs.
we lorve herr.
she is different frm others.
she talk less on lesson.
talk more on others.
learnt a lot frm herr.
like after our three yrs, what we do.
what canns we do andd loads.
she is crappy andd cute.
sommore she will end lesson early.
SHHH !
wnt for lunch at sim.
yum yum !
i forgot sth again andd again.
frm tmr onwards MUST.
saw vier they all.
so COOL.
kind of miss sec friends.
wnt for lecture.
sleepy mode agains.
but managed to keep awake thn.
thannked god.
i dislike doing reflections.
hrmms.
its raining.
prayed to god.
wnt to buy two tbks.
heavy heavy heavy.
meet sista andd huishi.
sista want help mie.
really really so touched.
huishi and i wnt photocopy.
thn bought another two tbks.
wnt upp to fourth floor.
i supposed.
rockfeller is the rm name.
so COOL.
sista booked the rm.
i lorve the place.
gd for studying too.
following upp.
thannked sista.
she taught mie loads.
walked to rooftop agains.
combine cg todays.
stopp raining lerrs.
but have to be inside.
played games first.
i am e winner.
nvr lose at all.
hooray !
caryn, yi wei and huishi forfeit.
is sadd tht we cant video it.
we are all sporty !
sang praise songs with actions.
i lorve it.
shared testimonals.
ate the body and drank blood.
huishi taught us.
thn we prayed.
i really thannked god.
think i have recieved the gift frm GOD.
all thannks to evryone.
wnt home then.
many many thannks to sista.
i thannked herr evry single secs.
no words to describe my feelings.
she helped mie carry tbks.
reached my home lerrs.
then she left.
so touched by herr.
lorve you.
ohyahhs and huishi and caryn.
thannks for e cg and evrything.
my sadness became happiness.
e word of god taught mie many things.
thannks sista for e '1 pet 3:13-16'.
amen.

f i r m.

2006-04-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

f i r m.

second dayy of sch.
woke upp at 630.
i am late.
OHSHIT !
chiong outtx at 645.
reached sim at 750.
tryy to walk to 38.
i am lost.
i walked those quiet places.
finally i reached.
wnt in andd settle down.
is quite boring.
after that have one hr break.
do my compre while waiting.
50 is small.
lecturer was nice andd crappy.
she is the best one.
physiology andd socialogy.
hrms.
is interesting thou.
had 2 hr break.
so i wnt to grandma hse.
walked the whole sch nia.
i am lost agains.
finally i reached.
is good to be there.
rest andd ate there.
the porridge is nice.
hadd banana too.
sighhs.
my mum toldd herr.
she talked to mie nicely.
i tryy to stand firm.
keeping quiet is e best at tht moment.
then i cried.
i just dnt understandd whys.
msged sista.
wnt back to sch.
is like so much faster.
meet upp with sista.
i am fine.
just still thinking abt it.
my mood aint good.
but thannks sista !
yr words healed mie.
although nt tht much.
thannks for accompanying mie.
wnt in 50 agains.
is the lecturer agains.
good cause i will pay attention.
but my mood somehow affects.
a joke tht i cant laugh.
hadd this lost feeling.
no clicks in my course.
just friends will do.
after tht, wnt to 38.
hadd lecture agains.
thn wnt to find lala annd xiao^2.
wnt to rooftop to have cg. ((:
xiao^2 and i wnt to buy foods and drinks.
wnt back andd xiaohong is here.
WEEE !
played games.
xiao^2 thought of one.
hooray !
so funn.
so farnie.
we laughed till SIAO.
mie andd xiao hong always the same.
chou 1, 2 ,3.
forfeit time !
xiao^2 had to say siao siao.
standing on the table.
shake herr butt.
hahas.
sporty.
clapps !
played another one.
agains she lost.
hahas.
we seemed to forget e forfeit.
sang songs.
prayers.
sharing testimonials.
is 8pm already.
dark arnd there.
but with them there.
with god there.
evrythings gonna be okays.
ate our dinner thn.
wnt home after tht.
hadd great time todayy.
NP4 !!!
8am to 8pm.
i am tiredd.
fainting soon.
hadd homework.
but i nvr complete any.
tmr is a relaxing dayy.
no matter what happens.
i will stand firm.
god is with mie.
god is watching mie.
god changed mie.
i thannked god..
i thannked sista.
i thannked jorris..
i thannked NP4.
i thannked hope church.
i thannked others.
amen.

w i t h m i e.

2006-04-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

w i t h m i e.

first dayy of sch.
meet upp with sista.
she got egg sandwich.
which made herr bagg smelly.
loads of complains.
i cant smell anything thou.
ate finish still complains.
indeed is smelly.
yucks.
hahas.
although is early morning.
we still canns crapps.
but only i canns suan.
heehees.
having bus sick.
played cai quan.
i always lost herr.
GRRR.
i canns read herr mind.
thats the problem.
the journey seems so farr.
gonna be late.
alighted at sim.
meet them andd chiong there.
wear the coat.
have to tie hair.
loads of rules.
but i lorve practicals.
the tcher is nice.
done one experiment.
COOL !
after introducing equipments.
we have to intro ourselves.
we are grown upps.
knew more more friends.
kind of lame thou.
after three hrs, went to eat.
crowded canteens.
went to roam around.
donated to charity.
went for lecture at 2pm then.
i hate many peeps tgther.
create noise pollution.
end upp i dozing off.
the air con too comfortable.
practical at 4pm.
is nice too.
WEEE !
learned seven steps of washing hands.
who want learn, FIND MIE !
learned how to wear and throw
mask, gown, gloves.
hands on is much more funn.
raining heavily.
tennis cancelled.
went home then.
tmr have cg !
looking forward to it.
rooftop sounds COOL.
i am sharing testi.
so excited. ((:
today is such a tiring dayy.
my timetable is the worst of all.
wanna compare ?
hope after one week, i will used to it.
god be there for mie.
amen.

b e l i e v e.

2006-04-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

b e l i e v e.

its saturday agains.
WEEE !
meet evan first.
indeed proud of herr.
she shared her testimonials.
i shared mine too.
reached there.
went to america rm.
hahas.
high class hurr.
yippes.
looking forward.
after prayer meet.
went to meridien with them.
sam shared what he knw with us.
after that slack arnd.
baked rice is yummy !
arnd 530, went to service.
lots of peeps.
hooray !
sat tgther.
enjoyed a lot.
jumped for joy.
pastor ben is farnie.
after that we went starhub.
we NP4 have names.
xiao hei, xiao hong, xiao siao,
xiao lu, xiao jian.
so crappy.
we shared fried rice andd hor fan.
yum yum !
had fresh fruits too. (:
went home at 9 plus.
hoping.
praying.
amen.

N P 4.

2006-04-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

N P 4.

yawns.
woke upp early.
vry tiredd.
slept at 3am evrydayy.
meet sista.
walked to mark's hse.
WEEE !
teacher teaching mie drum.
one step by one step.
do warm upp first.
nice one.
practise counts andd beats.
at least i knew theory.
slowly & steady win the race.
i did it somehow.
what i need is practise.
yeas.
thannks tcher.
is funn after all.
have drumsticks to practise at hm.
then learn guitar also.
hahas.
like so greedy.
had all the fingerings.
but no guitar.
its okays.
down down upp upp down . . .
sang many songs.
josephine came.
after that went to hg mall.
i finally ate macdonalds.
double fish fillet.
but no seaweed fries.
so sadd.
i looking forward to it.
nvr eat for ages.
i always forgot to say grace.
then we went to mrt there.
sat down andd sang songs.
with the guitar.
nice nice.
although guitar skills nt so pro.
but is gd, sista.
i enjoyed.
prayed for sista.
sista prayed for mie.
lord hear our prayer.
her stomachache stopped.
the rain stopped for mie.
then i went tuition.
thannks sista and josephine.
my first few homeworks no good.
i am the lousiest.
but i believe i will improve.
tmr going np agains.
going cca fiesta.
seems busy tmr.
really proud of evan.
thannked god.
faithinyou.

o n e w a y.

2006-04-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

o n e w a y.

WEEE !
sista ovrslept.
my morning calls are impt.
meet herr today.
went to fel's hse first.
bt batok nia.
far far away.
lorve herr rm.
although is messy.
hahas.
we ate maggie mee.
nuggets.
with air-con.
with music.
nice nice.
i am with fussy peeps.
lucky nt i cook de.
phew !
learned guitar.
a bit a bit.
vry little bit.
down down upp upp down upp. . .
begin to lorve music stuffs.
yeas yeas.
sang songs.
guitar is that impt.
josephine came frm camp.
blah blah blah.
went to ice skating at jurong.
the shoe is tight.
same shoe as sista.
indeed copy catts.
felt uneasy initially.
fel guide mie along.
she is pros.
there are so many pros there.
tryyinig nt to be influenced.
after a few rounds.
i managed without holding.
yippes.
slow and steady win the race.
thannks fel and sista.
after that went home.
i hate naggings and scoldings.
GRRR.
tmr drumming dayy !
hrms.
sth troubling.
needed help frm you.
i pray.

r a i n y.

2006-04-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

r a i n y.

woke up at 11am.
meet SISTA.
went to buy foods.
reached sentosa.
the weather doesnt seems right.
prayed prayed prayed.
ka chiau SISTA also.
our powers.
settle at shelter.
ate our foods.
OOPS.
god nvr hear our prayer.
the rain came.
sang songs also no use.
instead even worse.
no sun tanning.
no sunn.
arrrgh.
two guys came to shelter.
asked whether canns smoke ?
weridos.
we left there.
shelter at pavillion.
rain getting heavier.
spoil our dayy !
we read bible.
sang songs.
finally rain stops.
but chairlift nottx working.
so we sat the tram arnd.
nice nice.
childish of us thou.
yippes.
that job 6.50 bucks.
nt badd hurr.
WEEE !
nice andd smoothly.
my second time.
shake the chair.
took pic but unsuccessful.
after that at subway.
went back there soon.
bought tortoises for fenx.
played any rock paper scissor.
SISTA and i have damm good telepathy.
no winner or loser.
played cai quan.
drank water.
i am losing.
water made us bloated.
loser brought the bottle back.
annd is mie.
meet fenx at 730.
smiles made mie smiles.
yeas.
back home.
tmr is ice-skating dayy !
excited.

n e w l i f e.

2006-04-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

n e w l i f e.

yawns.
woke up at 7am.
morning called SISTA.
meet herr downstairs.
board 74 to np.
i am so tired.
yet have the energy to ka chaiu herr.
hahas.
she cant fight back.
reached at arnd 850.
meet huanying.
she meet josephine.
then we walked so farr.
to blk 38.
awww.
diff grp lerrs.
but at least knew few friends.
talks talks talks.
its so boredd.
have aching all ovr.
finally five min break.
back and talks agains.
nt joining any camp.
OOPS.
sat flag day nt going ?
hrms.
have touring round np.
such hot weather.
we are dying.
AHHH !
walked all the way to blk 81.
OMG !
the deadly slope.
i will tryy to avoid it.
is really killing us.
the SL there were okays.
evrything is weird.
getting used to it someday.
have introductions.
exchanging numbers.
chit chattings.
goodie bags.
nvr ate buffet.
went to find huanying and herr friend.
walked to SIM de bus stop.
have to explore.
then went to find sista at lib.
so nice.
got tvs, videos, coms, bks.
bought each a cup.
yum yum.
then sista and i went to town.
WEEE !
we ate subway.
same cookie.
we are copy cats.
caught a movie.
i thought keeping mum is comedy.
cause there is mr.bean.
end up so RA.
hahas.
we were like errrrh.
but is nice thou.
many farnie parts.
chirst involved in the movie too.
after watching, went taka.
she lorves to eat.
i learned frm her a lot.
i have qns.
but just cant think of.
yuppes.
took train home.
she went city hall.
i knew sth.
she gave mie surprise agains.
so swt.
i lorve it.
so touched.
almost evryday have one.
really thannked herr.
cant use words to describe.
what shld i do ?
i hope i canns so sth for herr.
is it time ?
pondering.

l o r v e.

2006-04-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

l o r v e.

hayys.
today stayed at home.
slacked.
done my hw.
watched tv whole day.
SISTA called mie.
was so shocked once agains.
she was downstairs.
meet her upp at 10pm.
she bought supper for mie.
so touched once agains.
she always gave mie surprises.
thannks lots.
wanted to tell you.
is great knwing you.
you came into my life.
others too.
i believe in you.
you beileve in mie.
SISTAS lorves to ka chiau.
hahas.
although i am full.
i will eat.
and i share the lorve with others.
telling mum asap.
worrys.
tmr going np.
weee !
quite excited.
looking forward.
misses evryone. ((:

F A I T H.

2006-04-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

F A I T H.

WEEE !
today went outtx.
meet up first.
went to drink.
chit chat.
then went to prayer meet.
first time was weird.
will gettx used to it.
target for today is manys.
hrms.
ended at 3 plus.
meet at S11.
crapps.
lots of introduction.
my memory cant contain.
hahas.
but is nice knowing them.
evryone was so friendly.
i lorve all.
service starting.
was nice and grand.
air-conditioned.
sang lots.
jumped andd clapped.
of course prayers.
managed to see many converts.
yippes.
after that we went to eat.
the shop 'fat mama'.
nice nice.
wanted to play arcade.
but neverminds.
its late.
meet with SISTA.
saw others.
chattings all day.
thannks for sending mie.
thannks for the choc.
thannks for the eng stuffs.
huggs and misses.
i really lorve SISTA.
she bought bible for mie.
she bought swts.
she gave mie CD.
she helped mie.
i really vry happy.
i enjoyed today.
i knw such caring peeps.
worrys remain.
thannked god for today.
god lorves us.
we lorve god.

L O R D.

2006-04-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

L O R D.

yay !
new blog skin.
today went to meet them.
OOPS.
i am late agains.
went to play pool.
met two new friends.
both frm np de.
yippes.
we play to see who is the lousiest.
the lousiest win the game.
HAHAS.
the result is outtx.
golden-haired monkey won !
after that we went to eat dinner.
then chat a lot.
crapps.
jokes.
then after i said the prayer.
i've just converted.
hrms.
initially, was weird.
but i believe in you.
i trust you.
i crossed the bridge to meet you.
thannks to jesus.
i'm worried for many other stuffs.
but with you beside me.
i think things will be better.
you are in my heart.
i hope.
i believe.
thannks evryone !
thannks a lot !

disturbances.

2006-04-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

disturbances.

sighhs.
flu.
cough.
i hate it.
but somehow lorve it.
woke upp early.
went to meet them.
knw new friend again.
nice to meet you.
golden-haired monkey.
i find herr quite style.
we bought snacks and drinks.
reached there.
no sun.
pissed lohhs.
we ate our lasi lemak there.
hadd fun.
sun tanned for a while.
heard many stuffs.
got "hai da arh hai da".
damm farnie.
four of us lie there.
heard evrything okays.
been awake by a guy.
played freesbie with three of them.
kind of weird initially.
then got forfeit.
cannot slack.
but we lost. (:
mineral water.
hahas.
then a grp of peeps came.
we suppose to guess what they acting.
just an action only.
CHEY !
jorris guessed correctly.
then jean have to go.
we continue sun tanning.
took pics.
then a beach patrol disturbed us.
spotted a lizard opp us.
warned us nt to cross ovr.
three disturbances.
but i enjoyed.
we sat the chairlift.
vry scared.
but actually is so stable.
nice ride that costs 3 bucks.
went home then.
sun burnt.
lucky nt vry serious.
i am still aimless.
hais.
just received rp's mail.
unsucessful.
i knw it !
so cfm NP.
confusing.

o v e r .

2006-04-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

o v e r .

sighhs.
last night i done sth.
i deleted all of it.
finally !
i did it !
it isnt that tough.
nv drop any tears.
early morning 6am.
YAWNS !
went to pray.
qi ming jie.
we had to respect them.
i cant stand my sensitive eyes.
those smokes made mie cryy.
after praying, wnt wang jiao eat.
yum yum !
rushing my breakfast.
wnt to help parents a while.
back home.
i have big tummy.
ARRGH.
damm ugly.
like how many mths old lrs.
lols.
doing push ups cure ?
or going gym ?
boredd at home evryday.
used to be alonne.
in a corner.
i live there.
nothing left behind.
only the soul of mine.
annd i said goodbye.
to my little corner.
over.

w h a t a d a y.

2006-03-31T23:06:00.001+08:00

w h a t a d a y.

long time since i blog.
today i woke up.
ate cup noodle.
arnd one pm went outtx.
sat in the train alonne.
its rather nice.
or i m bluffing myself.
reached bugis.
went in raffles hospital.
got my report.
i dnt understandd what she says.
she just walk away.
wtf.
forget it.
went home after that.
called the hospital.
called np then rp.
my course had to take 3 injections.
maybe going polyclinic instead.
rp bluff mie.
she told mie to go web see results.
i cant find any.
LIARS !
i hate LIARS !
GRRR.
by 10th april.
if nottx i cfm in np.
i prefer the course in rp.
i am very apoplectic.
ICUCICing old hag sister.
made me very frustrated.
her attitude sucks.
that LAZY
UNTIDY
MANLY
PLUMP
GREEDY
and HYPOCRITE lad.
slept 40 minutes already.
still unwilling to bring her mind back to her IMPORTANT homework!
could not believe that there is such a ridiculous person in this entire world.
my heart attack relapsed.
had difficulty in breathing.
shivered hysterically.
her despicable action caused great impact on me.
i was doing my compre.
made me redo again !
ass lohhs.
no mood for anything.
my veins burst.
my wound more greenish.
cannot use soft on herr.
so i use language.
she canns throw herr stuffs.
i throw for herr agains then.
nearly tear herr homework.
i cant save herr.
i just cannt lerrs.
have to depend on yrself de.
if nottx YOU ARE EM3 !
its true.
boredd.
no mapling.
what a day.

w h e r e a r e y o u ?

2006-03-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

w h e r e a r e y o u ?

sighhs.
woke up early.
went to harbourfront.
bought snacks and mat.
reached sentosa.
went tanning.
finally okays.
the bloody sun dnt shine.
the clouds cover the sun.
GRRR.
managed to tann for one hr ONLY.
darn short.
i am nt black.
isnt any much difference.
wasted my time and trip.
sadds. )):
still very blur abt polys.
i received np's letter.
waiting for rp's.
if i paid the fees for np,
rp's letter then come.
what shld i do then ?
sighhs.
confused.
such complicated life.
studying is better than these.
nt lookin forward.
slacking everyday.
shld do sth meaningful.
i want work.
kors working.
i want pay.
i need pay.
canns i ?
seems impossible.
hais.
how are you ?
how good canns i be ?
that's my ans.
how to look on a brighter side ?
there isnt any light at all.
there's sth missing.
seeking for somebody.
i need somebody.
being alone.

C O M P L I C A T E D.

2006-03-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

C O M P L I C A T E D.

sighhs.
i slack everyday.
useless bum.
hais.
just opened the letter box.
ngee ann.
so many papers.
so many forms.
have to submit by tmr.
i hope i go to rp.
at least the course is better.
every sch is far frm mie.
i really dnt knw what to do.
lost and perplexed.
nt even studying and i felt stress.
GRRR.
think i aint happy at all.
i dnt like my life.
nth is interesting.
everything is in a mess.
my mind is losing control.
i am nottx happy.
i am dead.
alrdy dead long long ago.
there isnt any difference.
unless somebody appear.
unless miracle happen.
unless i reborn.
losing everyone.

I N C O M P L E T E.

2006-03-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

I N C O M P L E T E.

sighhs.
day after day.
yesterday canns register.
i still cant make up my mind.
i want to retake maths.
but do i have the time to ?
maybe i shouldnt.
but i am nt satisfied.
am i too greedy ?
all the decisions and waitings made mie crazy.
GRRR.
so perplexing.
such slow tormenting process.
sighhs.
i counted.
whys shd i bother ?
eighty of your msgs.
i nvr delete.
guess i will someday.
perhaps tml.
forget.
leave this world.
say goodbye.
i cant communicate.
my money will be gone someday.
control.
outtx outtx everyday.
i want sun tann.
ask mie outtx.
i want study.
i want somebody.
i need a holiday.
set mie free. )):
lorve hurts.

A P A R T.

2006-03-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

A P A R T.

sighhs.
hate it.
dnt disturb my slp.
read the whole afternoon.
finish one more bk.
more to go.
wnt to grandma's hse.
had a small small welcoming for relatives.
nice andd yummy foods.
qns and qns.
i repeat myself plenty of times.
hais.
had digicam lerrs. ((:
uncle gave us.
yeas.
finally had one.
CHEESE!
hrms.
finally had ONE good news.
good good good.
my wish came true ?
isnt counted as a wish.
or is it ?
i'm really harppie for you.
guess someone changed you.
all the best!
i let go.
i have changed.
yesterday had great time with jorris and rendel.
we wnt shoppings.
took neos as memory.
but we will still hang outtx.
WEE!
poly life.
seems funn.
looking forward.
but worried.
tml is the first day of registering the retaking.
i havent think carefully.
should i retake maths ?
eng and maths.
canns i cope ?
GRRRRR.
losing touch with all.
leaving apart.

p e s s i m i s t i c.

2006-03-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

p e s s i m i s t i c.

sighhs.
cramps.
i hate it.
its so painful.
its tormenting.
its unbearable.
ARGHHHH!
i am dying.
the pain made mie feel like dying.
nobody understandds.
its worst then dying.
the night will be worse.
hais.
yesterday made agar agar.
i should put more sugar next time.
i dnt like it.
but they like it.
hrms.
getting bored at home.
went to tuition today.
more peeps.
learnt more.
i guess i was nt that badd.
she said that.
was quite encouraging.
i had 18/30.
nt good but its good enough for mie.
gonna improve.
but i want to knw when is the exam ?
have to prepare earlier.
must nt regret.
must nt outtx of pt.
i think my D7 is my mistake.
so sadds.
lonely life.

a l o n e.

2006-03-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

a l o n e.

sighhs.
yesterday wnt to sp.
looked arnd.
is so bigg.
i dnt like it.
phew !
wnt to macdonalds.
think over.
saw von and rowen.
then met a gurl.
help herr with the survey.
chat a lot.
so rp is nt as thats badd.
nursing also.
hrms.
decided to go rp.
but on the way.
receieved a call.
have to appeal online first.
dots -_-
so we took cabby to j8.
wanted to catch a movie.
but too late.
so wnt to haigen diaz.
nt badd lahhs.
i wanted shoppings.
but they dnt want.
wnt home then.
appealed for rp alrdy.
i am stupidd agn.
should have put more than 2 choices.
should have put the right one.
hais. )):
today wnt nyp.
nth much.
waste time only.
nursing was 21 pts.
health sci-nursing was 28 pts.
weird.
jorris, our new friend.
helped me a lot.
nice knwing herr.
going outtx someday.
hw and mie wnt to causeway.
wanted jack's place.
i was craving for it.
nt time yet.
ate pizza hut instead.
saw xy and wq.
we shopp arnd.
bought cd for sis.
bought puma shirt.
nth much there actually.
orchard is still better.
watch big momma 2.
darn farnie.
laugh. i did.
but nt that much.
no idea whys.
maybe i changed.
let the fate decide.
i wish you all the best.
the pasts are over.
the memories are over.
andd i am left here. )':

in the darkness,
i look for someone.
in the cold,
i stretch out an arm.
but nobody comes,
nobody warms me.
i'm all, all all alone.
i'm so afraid.

i was so alone, so lost.
i'm so happy, so free!
up here there is no darkness, no pain.
up here we love perfectly, completely.

C H A N G E D.

2006-03-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

C H A N G E D.

sighhs. )):
i dnt knw what to say.
didnt have the mood.
i cant really accept the fact.
some says tryy appealing.
i dnt even knw what courses i canns go in.
some cant.
my lousy results caused.
some says is good mahhs.
i dnt knw will i regret.
i dnt knw what is it about.
that little paragraph shows what ?
if i regret.
i waste one yr.
if i appeal, where ?
to where ?
YOU TELL ME !
say is easy.
is hardd to make decisions.
i really have no where to go.
unless republic.
if nottx dnt change.
how how how.
nobody is there.
if i want to go see see, who canns ?
i dnt knw is i never ask or they are gone.
how canns they be so happy.
whys i am here alonne.
dnt tell mie anything anymore.
whatever i want to do, sth stop mie.
maybe i have depression.
maybe i should be alonne.
maybe i should settle all alonne.
oh wells.
i think over carefully tonight.
beginning to start a lonely life.
i will gettx use to it sooner or later.
i will talk less.
just like the pasts.
i cant even think of anything to talk abt.
is over.
i cant communicate anymore.
i am srys. )):
leave mie here will do.
everything is changing.
i have changed.
i hope i am up there.
without thinking.
living happily.
i felt that i am really pathetic.
like begging for peeps to pei mie.
gettx lost.
f c u k o f f.

NOIDEA !

2006-03-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

NOIDEA !

sighhs.
been woke up by boss.
"the posting is outtx !"
gosh !
i get into health sciences(nursing).
good ?
badd ?
is like the seventh choice.
doesnt mean i like seven,
then it had to be like that.
wth.
jes called.
kor called.
wen caled.
i really dnt understandd MOE.
whys ?
they should have course.
i dnt knw how to console them.
everyone cheer ups !
i cant slp well after all those calls.
i dnt knw how should i feel ?
confused.
darnn.
stupid arrangements.
fcuk system.
went to meet wen for lunch.
hais.
talked to yk.
eat at his place there.
chit chat.
finally saw the guy.
nt badd.
quite cute, i guess.
walked arnd.
bought stuffs.
met joce.
i dnt think anyone is happy with it.
even i dnt think i am.
shall i appeal for anything ?
is it good ?
someone tell mie more abt it.
i dnt care how far.
i just want to knw is it good ?
some says huh.
some says better than mie.
some says nurse arh.
good mahhs.
canns find a doctor boyfriend.
wth.
some says have to clean shit.
i dnt knw lahhs.
everything goes in the wrong way.
waiting for the letter to come.
somebody. )):
pondering.

miserable.

2006-03-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

miserable.

sighhs.
woke up late as usual.
do the laundry.
started to read books.
whys i never start earlier ?
i regretted.
i will score better if i do so.
after lunch.
went to tuition.
first lesson was okays.
i guessed.
her son is so cute.
he only wears an underwear. ((:
he treats mie swts.
he asks mie to watch tv.
he is so adorable.
wanted to pinch him.
but nahhs.
went in the rm with another guy.
although is diff races.
is good to speak english.
learnt new words.
she is good in teaching.
i trust her.
i hope i canns improve a lot.
but only if i canns help myself.
i have to speak more.
read more.
listen more.
use more.
yuppes.
went home then.
i hate e adult bus fees.
is so expensive.
urrrrgh. ><
tommorow's posting is outtx.
excited yet worried.
who knws how it feels ?
they never even tell us the specific time.
darnn.
still nt strong.
no matter how time changes stuffs,
i hope for the best.
misses sch life.
misses those memories.
misses those places.
misses those peoples.
i even knw how to ans a simple qn.
indeed a failure.
who am i ?
what kind of a person am i ?
NOBODY KNOWS.
even i dnt knw. )):
is nice knowing everyone.
is nice to have everyone.
but i didnt have the power,
to have everyone.
i am srys.
walking alonne. )):

endless.

2006-02-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

endless.

sighhs.
i still think negatively.
i am still pessimistic.
i still understandd.
i read what you wrote.
i knw its totally over.
i made my decision.
i must forget.
i am still jealous.
i just cant be truly happy.
finally found a eng tuition.
going on thurs.
she seems good.
had homework ]:
cant wait for the first lesson.
thannks to boss. [:
slacked.
bored at home.
taught what i canns.
pissed over sisters.
nt understanding family.
nothing left over.
nt even a single one truly friend.
i live alonne.
i am always alonne.
four more days.
to decide where i go.
sleepless nights.
somebody is needed. ]]:

MIRACLES.

2006-02-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

MIRACLES.

sighhs.
ai shi xin zhong wei yi bu bian mei li de shen hua.
it was the last line.
such nice song.
boredd at home.
heard over the radio.
saying that being sadds is always longer than being happy.
whys ?
cant it be the other way round.
i cant stand my life.
gettx lost.
i tried so hardd to be strong.
but i cant.
lorve hurts.
lemon is no longer swt.
memories stayed.
freedom is needed.
somebody is needed. ]'=

love.hate.

2006-02-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

love.hate.

sighhs. i dnt understandd what adults are thinking. i have already grown up. i have my own thinking. my own way. my own decisions. let mie decide. is it so difficult ? i want to take the courses. it will help mie. although will take up my time, i will tryy to handle my studies and courses. is mie who is suffering now. cant you just understandd MY feelings. even i want to work. work as what. you want to control. whatever it is, i will be controlled. fine then. i will be more rebellious. i am big enough to decide my own path. this is my life. nottx yours. is it the money problem ? hais. today bought a pair of addidas shoe. yuppes. finally i bought one. isnt so good as i thought. but is special. i like it. although it looks like school shoe frm far. i like the design. joce bought too. i hope nottx many peeps have that. i hate to be common. played bb at the same place again. the mood there was nottx as good as i thought. hais. getting lesser and lesser peeps. so pathetic. drizzle a while. we went to the nearby shelter. chat and sing song with jes. i like the wind. i am tiredd. have serious headache. every night is like a war. i am struggling to sleep. have to buy sleeping pills soon. next friday will be the day that determine which course i go. pray pray pray. i realise i canns shopp alone. one day i will. spending money almost everytime. is time to control. yahhs. are things under control ? nobody knows how i feel. until somebody come. just gettx lost. i need somebody. ]]=

heaven knows. ]=

2006-02-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

heaven knows. ]=

sighhs. i really hope someone will underestandd mie. just one will do. i seemed to lost everyone. i cant find anyone arnd mie. i never take the initiative. whenever i saw those lorving couples. those crappy grps of friends. who will knw what i feel ? i really lost. always ask yourself. are you happy ? if no, whys still made decisions that you will regret ? i dnt understandd. i hate youu. but i cant. time will overtake those pains slowly. i will forget you someday. even how hardd, i must tryy. if nt i will suffer. so what if i am single ? doesnt means i cant live right ? i shall find one day and go shopping alone. eat alone. but i cant bluff myself. i need somebody. i dnt want to be despo like those peeps outside there. yucks. hate those third party or those arse guys. whatever. whoever. everyone arnd mie are in loved. are being loved. wahhs. become so trendy. good. loner is a loner. is the fact. please accept it. when will i wake upp ? i cant even manage my own stuffs. failure. same goes to my result. total failure. nobody will understand my feelings. i nearly died. isnt a big deal stuff. common news in newspaper. hahas. today went to buffet at hotel intercontinental. nice place. doesnt click with anyone. just have to be childish at times. thirty eight bucks per person. is ex. so we had to eat as much as possible. yuppes. walked a while at bugis and went home. i want tanning. someone date mie outtx. pathetic one. guess tomolo i will be studying ? wahahas. maybe. i will do the same as darrling deicided. GIVEUPP ! lets do it togthr. tryy even though you knw you cant. pessimistic. i just have to admit. heaven knows the pasts and futures. heaven knows who is good and badd. heaven knows what is right and wrong. beileve in god. all i want is somebody. is it that difficult ? ]= 1) find and experience TRUE LORVE. 2) have a romantic birthday dinner with my loved one. 3) a love letter dropping from the sky, specially for mie. 4) someone to take all my sorrows away. 5) die with a piece of a memory of TRUE LORVE.

SOS.

2006-02-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

SOS.

sighhs. third of march seems so far far away. what will the result be like ? i hope for the best. hrms. maybe god want to make funn of mie again ? i slacked these few days. i dnt think this is the way. i hate it. i began to play gameboy. hais. i wanted to studyy. i dnt wantt to be rusty. recall every bits of knowledge is good too. i must. frm next week bahhs. i wanted english tuition as soon as possible. please. i should have took my mum's advice earlier. then my result will nottx be in this way. i hate number 23. seriously, i hate myself. whys should i be here ? i should be right up there or down there. everything doesnt seems right everytime. is contradicting. i want to study. i want to work. i want to spend money. i want to shopp. someone tell mie what to do. every single day, i cant stop thinking about the pasts. i suppose it ended earlier. and i should really try to stopp my mind frm thinking. it hurts. bleeds. slits really dnt help. i felt terrible everyday. i cant be peaceful. i cant be happy. just hope i was a kid now. no troubles. no problems. true lorve is true. but when will i experience it ? when will i find my only one ? memories stays even someone dies. guess i does nt belong to this world. set mie free then. fuck. i really need someone. ): 1) find and experience TRUE LORVE. 2) have a romantic birthday dinner with my loved one. 3) a love letter dropping from the sky, specially for mie. 4) someone to take all my sorrows away. 5) die with a piece of a memory of TRUE LORVE.

happyvalentine.

2006-02-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

happyvalentine.

sighhs. yesterday went outtx with cat and jes. actually celebrating jes birthdae. and eating DA CAN. i thought canns. neverminds. we watched fearless. yeas. need ic. stupid lahhs. the person dnt even knw how to calculate. wahahas. we went to buy pocky then went in and wait. i hate long advertisements. boredd. a lot nice shows coming upp. yeas. gogogo ! is nice. quite bloody. lots of fightings. catt lorve the most. but she fell asleep. lols. and mie cried at one part. hahas. stupidd. nice nice. after thats we went shopping arnd. bought shoe and shirt. i just have the feeling of spending all my money. everyone bought stuffs. gave them flowers. hees. they went to airport to send naka. i went to meet sis at mall. she wants to buy stuffs for valentine. i never celebrate this year. nahhs. today went suntec with hw and sewlyn. i bought a skirt. i lorve it. damm ex. my first time too. i go for branded stuffs. OHNO. badd news. i will be broke soon. then we went to eat fish and co. wahhs. my second time. someone treat so i choose there. but felt badd. starter, main course and beverage. the drink is nice. yummy. finish eating, hw and i bought chocolates for mslim. then we went to school to find herr. have things to ask her. teachers have better opinions and views. hais. i just hope i canns get the course i want. gd lucks.

breakdown.

2006-02-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

breakdown.

sighhs. i cant do it. thannks everyone. but i really cant stop thinking about it. give mie some time. i need a break. i have been thinking the whole day for the courses. maybe after a few days then ammend bahhs. i am really stupid to submit so early. blame myself will do. if i canns go the course i want. i wont retake. if nottx i will waste one year. and pass my eng and choose another course. hais. more questions. more hurt i am. i dnt feel right today. breaking down soon. feel like dying. i hate to carry these pains. let mie off. please. ='(

IAMafailure.

2006-02-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

IAMafailure.

sighhs. i made my choices and submit this morning. but is a wrong move. all my fault. whys am i so kaisu ? is it because my dad says have to faster ? i am really confused. i need lots of advices. went to grandma hse. ate yu sheng and dinner. asked my aunties and uncles. i really have no face. hais. i have to think thoroughly again. all over again. and ammendment need ten bucks. ass lohhs. just blame mie will do. i am too rush. i am too silly. because of my english. i have limited courses. no matter what, is still my fault. all my fault. but is all too late for mie. i have to choose a path now. retaking english or other subjects or choose the course i want ? this course or that ? should i ? follow your heart. okays. i will think over it again and again. no rush. my lousy grades cant compare to those good ones. i am really jealous. but i dnt have the rights to. i dnt even have good grades. nt even one. such a failure. indeed. want to commit suicide ? if is time to die, god will take mie away. but if is nt, i just live on. my fate and life depend on you, GOD. somehow, i am sick of life. ups and downs. gossipings. quarrelings. relationships. whatever. i am tiredd. even my dad canns buy toto. using my grade. pathetic. seriously, my heart breaks. my grade canns buy toto. hahas. so nice right ? so cool. grandma encourage mie. was touched. gave mie money ? i dnt want to accept. with this kind of grade ? i appreciate. cant stop tearing. i am nottx okays. sry peeps for bluffing. today went outtx with sis to bugis. bought stuffs. wondering whys i have the mood ? i have to. is better than staying at home and zibi. bought prezzie. took neos. ate lunch at 4pm. lols. went home. confidence ? you canns do it ? hais. i cant even control my emotions. let mie sleep forever. dnt wake mie upp. let mie be. moodless.

tormenting.

2006-02-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

tormenting.

sighhs. so is a badd one for mie. what a surprise huh. is fcuk. is shit. is BULLSHIT. i really hate it. so my feeling is right ? but i dnt want. i still cant accept it. the starting of the powerpoint. wahhs. happy that the OVERALL did well. improvement. so whats ? the good ones pull the weaker ones mahhs. i am totally disappointed. break down. thannks everyone for the care andd encouragement. i just cant stop thinking about it. tearing non stop cant help but. haiss. i never ask others about their results. i just knw how to crys. thannks su eng. i never expect my cousin to be there for mie and others. yuppes. she crys too. after going to the toilet. i went home alonne. i insist. just wanted to be alone. sry su eng. slowly walk andd think. tearing. had many missed calls by parents. called mum and started crying agains. her tone. she never scold but i knw she is disappointed too. i am sry. wanted to be alonne. i sat there. nt intending to go home. i saw sis and i hid. first time. dad called so many times. i dnt wanna talk to him. sry mrs boey. i never get A1. but B3. i hate myself too. sry for nt picking your call. i really want to be alonne. i nearly commit suicide. haiss. finally went home. lock myself in the room. grandma wanted to talk to mie. okays. i control my emotions. i cannt. she say neverminds. still got course. i knw everyone is disappointed. I AM SORRYS. i never did my best. i never have good results. i never make you all proud. i am useless. i cannt go to business. but maybe related one still have. better than nothing ? i am really lousy. those peeps get so good. i am stupid indeed. god is making fun of mie. boss too. haiss. same fate. i just hope i canns go in the course i chosen. please. to those studying: please do studyy hardd. if nottx when you take your results then regret, is too late lerrs. dnt follow my footsteps. is very painful and tormenting to walk this path. thannks kor. i suppose i am okays. full of saddness. full of disappointment. full of tears. no mood for anything. congrates huimin. congrates to those clever peeps. congrates darrling. heard that you canns go jc. its good. jiayou. take caress. iamdumbb.

GOGOGO !

2006-02-09T15:43:00.000+08:00

GOGOGO !

sighhs. tml tml tml. yahhs. its tml. still indeed very scared and worry about it. nobody canns understandd the feeling. its so scary. everyone of us fear to see. i woke up today and smell sth burning. OOPS. my mum actally forgort to off the stove. i nearly die ? hahas. i was surprised when my dad called mie and ask about my results. he was concerned. i am touched. after all, they cared. i know. but things are like thats. is hardd to describe. haiss. to mie, everything doesnt goes right. always. i hate it. will i die soon ? whys am i like. realise that who cares about mie. the feeling. just hope i will cherish. i will grow up. i will learn how to be strong. i have to. no longer a kid. yuppes. pray pray pray. WISHING US GOOD LUCKS !

100206'

2006-02-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

100206'

sighhs. 100206 is the date when everyone of us will be taking our GCE 'O' level results. whys is it so fast ? hais. very very worry. very very scared. please. oh please. i really hope i canns do well this time. every seconds. every minutes. every hours. every day passed. the day is drawing nearer and nearer. my heart will beat faster and faster. if that day i die, will i take my results ? but if i die, i also want to see lerrs then die. to mie, this is extremely important. please. i think i will cryy every night. hais. too worry. i really have very very less confident. how ? grandma wish mie good luck. give mie encouragement. ask mie to gogogo. really touched. i very scared thats i will dash everyones' hopes. even now, i am cold. too tense. if is badd, i really have nothing to do. i dnt knw how to face this. its the end. meaningless. just hope it will turned outtx to be good. pray hardd everyday. prayy hardd for everyone. gogogo ! andd fri is our last time seeing each other. maybe is the last time. perhaps. cherish it. yesh. i will. remember every single faces. really cant bear it. but i thought i lost everyone already. =( sighhs. miracles. i beileve. but is either you die or i live. isnt it ? fri fri fri. 230pm. it will decide where we go. where our future are. all these days, i have nothing to do. nobody dates mie. and neither do i. maybe everyone is just waiting for someone to take the first step first. just like whats kc said. hais. you made mie teared when you said 'its nice knowing you'. its really nice knowing so much peeps. knowing so much knowledge. knowing every single teachers. and we are leaving. yuppes. the matter also made mie feel lost. just let all these become a past. i misses everything so whats ? forget it. its time to let it go. its time to learn how to put it down. take it slowly. andd stopp whatever i am thinking about it. wo ren ming le. no strength to do anything. stress up. today i cant beileve i am willing to teach my sisters and sacrifices my time. guess i dnt want them to end up like mie. haiss. dnt follow my steps. i regretted many stuffs. i should have really study hardd. but is too late. accept it. ohyahhs. read destiny cries agains. 1) find and experience TRUE LORVE. 2) have a romantic birthday dinner with my loved one. 3) a love letter dropping from the sky, specially for mie. 4) someone to take all my sorrows away. 5) die with a piece of a memory of TRUE LORVE. gd luckks everyone ! eleven clapps.

CNY.

2006-01-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

CNY.

sighhs. came to blog lerrs. cny came so sudden. been so busy. do this and thats. my muscle grew bigger and bigger lerrs. but every morning i will feel damm tiredd. haiss. and now, is cny is over. guess thats i nt helping lerrs. take a break ? what to do at home ? arrrgh. sunday went to grandma hse bai nian. wear nice nice. have hongbao. eat eat. talk talk. quite bored. drank a sip of liquor. quite nice. hahas. swt swt de. i lorve my uncle paul. if he is my dad jiu hao. canns have loads of stuffs. but he is quite strict. i have to study well lehhs. hais. no one is perfect. slept at grandma hse. then eat dinner. after that went home. wanted to watch movie but postponed lerrs. yesterday went to chalet. nothing to do. played bowling. played arcade. used my money. gone gone gone. every year nothing to do. at night, have a game. like toto or bingo. three rounds. i won the third round. 55 bucks. two winners so divide lohhs. gave the money to my mum. for the movie tickets. dad lost in gambling. thats all. then today went to watch i nottx stupid 2 with relatives, cousins and grandparents. is nice. go watch. made mie crys non stop. almost everyone cried. hahas. knw whats FAMILY means lerrs. it means "Father And Mother I Love You." i didnt knw. learnt many stuffs frm this movie. yuppes. after thats went to restaurant to eat lunch. i am so full. walk arnd and went back home. felt so tiredd. its the sun's fault. slept a while and went off to chalet. nothing to do agains. played bowling. i improved. yeas. CLAPPS ! my cousin had turkeys. damm pro. many babies arnd. janson is the most handsome and cute de. zen's son. zen and janson. such nice names. i lorve it. i changed a lot. yuppes. everyone said thats. results is coming outtx. very very scared. nt excited. dnt come outtx. i fear i cannt make it. i fear of receiving it. i fear to face it. sighhs. everyone asked which poly i going ? which course ? which jc ? i really dnt knw. i dnt knw where to go. i am lost. what is my goal ? aim ? target ? no idea. just lorve maths. god, tell mie what to do. lead mie to the right path. will you ? let mie let go of the pasts. i am thinking of it everyday. gonna burst. life is yours. cherish it or you will lose i if you give up. x)

BLEEDS.

2006-01-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

BLEEDS.

sighhs. fuck fuck fuck. sark sark sark. i just hate it. hate this life. hate this world. hate everything. nothing seems to go right. i thought i have grown up. i thought i have see everything easy. i thought i will be strong. but i am bluffing myself. i just cant be strong. i am still that weak. still the one that crys. slits. think wildly. cant see things right. cant be positive. cant understandd. cant have the one. maybe is fated to be. i worked everyday now. and woke up early. my life became so empty. everyday, i force myself to wake up. walk to the place i worked at. do whatever things i had to do. drink coffee. helped outtx. smile to everyone even though i dnt want to. just like wearing a mask. finish work, bought dinner and went home. just so simple. but i am really really lost. i tryy agains. but i lost it agains. hais. everything is fated. let it go. time heals. but the wound is being cut agains. is more painful than the first time. bleeds. sighhs. take mie away. i dnt want to be so painful. so hurtful. so depressing. die faster will shorten the journey. please.

experiences.

2006-01-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

experiences.

sighhs. frm now, i am no longer a kid okay ? yesh. have to learn to grow up. learn new stuffs. help outtx. have been working nowadays. was really tiring. own business tend to slack yahhs. but i did my job. have coffee everyday. addicted to it. lorve coffee very much. hahas. will i gain or lose weight ? hmmm. control bahhs. only three days so far, falling sick. i will tryy to take cares but who cares anyway ? hack lahhs. during working, you will met different kind of customers. face the problems you met. overcome them. learn how to handle them. learn more about money =) i really learn a lot. especially the price of the cigarettes. hahas. is interesting and fun somehow. but very very tiring. it isnt an easy job though. i am only a small small worker. my relatives and parents worked more more. extra more than mie. mine is such a small fry. so i knw how they suffer everyday. i tryy to help as much as i canns. tough. life have to go on. will be helping till chinese new year. busy busy busy. that means less less lesser maple. yuppes. never play for three days. manage to get rid of the addiction. but nottx coffee. tomolo having bbq. finally canns relax for the few hrs. still working 8am in the morning. exhausted. headache. tired. i will gettx stronger andd weaker at the same time. became quieter and quieter. i am nottx thats crappy anymore. i need someone. hais. brought two books. after reading "i beileve you." i am touched. nearly cried. will read agains when i am free. another book "destiny cries". is nice too. haven started. meaningful and interesting. kay hwa's books is worth it. if anyone wanna read, contact mie. or read a little at http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm hahas. do your very best in whatever you do. =D

ibelieveyou.

2006-01-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

ibelieveyou.

sighhs. "you've gotta go for it! only you ... yourself can help yourself ... understanding yourself is most important." "two A.M and the rain is falling, here we are at the crossroads once again, you're telling me you're so confused you can't make up your mind, is this meant to be you're asking me." "but only love can stay, try again or walk away, but i believe, for you and me, the sun will shine one day, so i just play my part, and pray you'll have a change of heart, but i can't make you see it through, that's something only love can do ..." i like this story, "i believe you." plus the sadd song. wanna buy this book. but hard to purchase. tryying to find it. all thanks to don's recommendation. first time reading story in internet. and was interested. hahas. good =) doing nothing nowadays. looking for jobs but end up helping my parents frm tml onwards. i dnt wish to but neverminds. hmmm. so i slack. played maple. but getting sick. hais. even want to go outtx also no one to turn to. i am really hopeless. i am really lost. haven bought my new year clothes. oops. so this is life. learn to accept it. so do something meaningful while you canns. dnt regret wors. think carefully before you ade any decision. been thinking through the night. listening to the rain. thinking of the pasts, the decisions i made. i still think of it every moment. maybe it still exist. i guess i regretted. what is meant to be, they will be. so let the god do the job. or let the fate comes near. grab any opportunity. dnt lose it because you wont knw when you will need it. XP

anew ?

2006-01-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

anew ?

sighhs. it had been some time lerrs. school reopened. students going to school. graduates waiting for o level results. arrrgh ! bored. going to two months lerrs. i dnt have any job yet. i really think that i am a failure. cant even find a single one ? only one. tutor coordinator. my job is to match students with tutor. but i cant find any students yet. please help mie. contact mie if have students need a tutor. any level also canns. today went to find job agains. raining. yea. john little no vancancy. metro cannot. taka nt sure. others no no no. really pek cek of finding one. went to eat first. then find agains. no no no agains. forget it. went to find jl. admire those have job de. i nearly got jl's job too. but i nv recieve any calls. sadds. =( the environment is good. pay nt badd. collegues nt badd. jiayou. walk arnd and asked is there any job vacancy ? even i canns repeat it many times in my dream. fcuk. having badd mood. went home. tearing. i just have a badd attitude. control my emotions. and flip through the newspaper agains. called one by one. finally. tml going to interview. hopefully. please. i need a job badly. without a job, i slack. i think wildly. i play maple. i slp. i watch tv. i cut. i teared. i hate it. oh god, just do mie this favor. till now, i still cant forget it. seriously cant. time really heals. but is still exist. i think of it everyday. everynight. haiss. just hope my results is good and presentable. gd nites. XP

farewell'

2005-12-21T16:32:00.000+08:00

farewell'

sighhs. yesterday went school early in the morning. is like years. i never wake up so early lohhs. hahas. meet up with allison. then went in as ex-seniors. with the pass. hahas. so shiok. hmmm. we went to support band mahhs. nice happy birthday song. hahas. abselling. crazy mr.yeo. blahs blahs. a bunch of students ran back from punggol. well done ! if is mie, think i will die half way through. hahas. everything was boring lahhs. free mac donalds of them. we lehhs ? have buffet. but never eat. pei huiwen find teachers. here and there. i am really tiredd. went to play a bit of footdrill. i miss it. hope we canns help. but neverminds lahhs. warm weather. went to allison hse with darrling. crapps. gossipings. talkings. playing with drumsticks and instrument. nice puzzle. nice hse. xian mu her. hmm. remember to date mie for swimming. but i cant swim well. maybe will drown de. lols. arnd 2 plus. we went back to school for farewell. we missed the pop. really pathetic. so little peeps. saw sean. was like happy. so long never meet lerrs. still crapps. still the same for mie. but him. became worst. hahas. fones still the same. no more 3315. hahas. we had food. then music played by the band. is nice. i cried. guess nobody saw. i am happy to hear that. touched. and sadd. we go for the good. we leave for the good. they canns do without us. is good. then had trophy for us. wa. principal give us lehhs. so honoured. my first trophy. hahas. thought was heavy. was prepared to hold it. but so light. lols. have chirstmas ball. had sth special and oral b de toothbrush. is nice and swt. but i saw the price tag. oops. thankks band. and the school. we talked about maple and maple againss. hahas. i bragged about korean fan. i was so lucky. hahas. but lvl low, i have nothing to say. talked to mr.ng. hmm. i dnt knw how to help. my section actually have a big big problem. how ? even we are back also cannot help. sadds. ek fang. where are you ? thats all. games cancelled. boredd. tiredd. stayed in canteen for a while. ate chocolate. yummy. fangjie is damm cute. darrling nearly in love with her worrs. hahas. went home then. whats a farewell party we had. hais. neverminds. they are sincere. i appreciate it. one more month. whats to give ? take cares.

slash.

2005-12-19T13:06:00.000+08:00

slash.

sighhs. today was again stuck at home. still haven find a job yet. for now, is different agains. life still have to go on. i knw. i dnt knw is it right to treat it this way. i miss everything. but is over agains. fade away but exist. start over agains ? canns i ? one slash down, and slowly recover a little. and another slash down agains on the old wound. whats will i feel ? tears. guess was fated ? nt meant to be ? memories i will keep it. hoping everything will be okay. wish all the best to you. so many better ones outtxx there. as for mie, stayed on the spot. waiting for time to heal the wound. will be on the same boat as koala. but koala have job. i dnt have. i need one to keep mie busy. yuppes. tomolo going to school. missing school days. having farewell. drifted. hope we graduates will have fun there. missing everyone loads. after prom, been losing contact to everyone. think god always make fun of us. i hate it. maybe i will be more matured in my thinking after all problems. maybe bahhs. i dnt want to cry and cry like last time. but scar will remain there. christmas is coming. no idea how to celebrate. let it be. take cares.

learning journey.

2005-12-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

learning journey.

sighhs. i hate to stay at home. set mie free. will you ? like i was a bird in a cage. cannot be set free. i want to go outtx everyday. i want to work. i want to earn money. i want to buy. i want to be free. i want to be happy. been locked up. i hate the feeling. i hate being controlled. think of my feeling canns ? so many days passed lerrs. i am still jobless. i never put in effort bahhs. really need money. if nt cant survive at all. understandd ? thought tomolo canns find job. but cannot. another one. also cannot. boredd. sadd. about one month lerrs. haven even have a proper job. been nagged. been scolded. give mie a break lahhs. after Os. and no school. no band. i am still troubled. GOD, let mie off. please. just leave mie alonne. i watched the scar. thinking of the pasts and now. i knew i have changed. but i want to learn to take things easy. learn to be matured. learn to make decisions. learn to grow up. learn to think of others. learn many other things. time will heal. time will take place. yahhs. take cares.

jobless.

2005-12-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

jobless.

sighhs. i am still jobless. no money to spent. i want to earn money. buy many many things thats i wanted. today went outtx with sis. shopp arnd. bought my bag lerrs. and another one more. like i am so greedy. spent most of the money lerrs. haiss. shopp for my pants. end up bought one. but i want another one. am i greedy ? if i have more money, i would have buy everything. hahas. ate a bit. no appetite. then went to job interview. recommended by my aunt and mum. insist on wanting mie to go. gateway west. seemed so far. sis and i walk one big round. took cab. 360 cents. lols. waste money. the place is nice. went up to 37th floor. so high. asked. and knw thats wrong lerrs. should be interview at the branch. pissed lahhs. heard thats one hour only 350 cents. have to work constantly. have to work after school also. hmmm. will waste the company's money. costly. i dnt want to do lerrs. dnt force mie. hmmm. went home after buying sushi for dinner. damm tiredd. really jobless. i hate it. somebody ask mie outtx lahhs. lets find a job. pei mie find job. pathetic mie. help mie lahhs. i need a job. no mood for anything now. dnt bother about mie then. take cares.

the right path ?

2005-12-08T23:26:00.001+08:00

the right path ?

sighhs. today stuck at home. wanted to go outtx. sis dnt feel like. forget it. played maple. create another one ? sians. start all over againss. level 6 only. boredd. jobless. tml suppose to go outtx and find. but now whats ? nt cfm. always like thats. i hope i have ons friends. i need it. i cant find anyone. dnt knw turn to who. where are you all ? i dnt knw who canns i date. tell mie ! darrling went overseas. i miss her. hais. i want to go outtx tomolo. i dnt care ! i want. grrrrr. i will rot de. please someone date mie outtx. will you ? hmmm. days passed by. and i haven find any jobs thats suits mie. or rather i never work hard to find one. guess is my fault anyway. now i know whys finding job is so xin ku. i felt so pathetic. i need money. i really want to buy loads of stuffs. no job, no money. just so simple. no degree. no job. no money. no life. meaningless. yuppes. decision ? have i made one ? i really really have to ask myself. i dnt want to regret. i dnt want to. but everytime. or anything. i seems to think a lot. never had a decision. dnt knw how. kind of lost. never ever made a good decision. i cant. i just cant. never had my own mind and thinking ? somehow like being controlled by something powerful. arrrgh. evil spirits. lolss. just hope someone like god will enlighten mie. will lead mie. will give mie a path to go to. help mie in m any ways. thats will be so good. yahhs. will i ever had one ? a true one ? take cares. XP

slpless.

2005-12-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

slpless.

sighhs. having slpless night. late slp. arrrgh. no jing shen. today woke up at 630am. fcuk. badd mood. so i cant work anymore. went there. blahs blahs. orientation. feeling unwell. fainting. giddy. gastric. whatever sickness just pop outtx lolss. finally start working. we do scanning de. quite easy lahhs. but continuously. non stop. standing sommore. really very tiring. lunch break. nv went to eat. no peeps to pei also lolss. went back and work then. the peeps there were friendly. but supervisor sarks lahhs. shout here and there. want mie to tie hair with the stupid rubber band. hahas. 3pm lerrs. xia ban lerrs. my legs hurt. pain. OUCH ! first day only. cant imagine how they survive. went home. eat instant noodle. nv ate anything yet. then rest for few mins only. hong wanted to quit. so i guess mie too. since parents object. haiss. unsuccessful. wasted one day. fri gonna find job lerrs. need money. need buy lots of stuffs. you understandd ? dnt wanna use your money. i rather use hard earned money. sighhs. one day over lerrs. still thinking ? guess i cant slp tonight too. will be thinking of many stuffs. thats my habit. yahhs yahhs. face it bahhs. pondering. thats it. thinking of plan by using lollipops ? maybe. ummm. take cares.

just the beginning.

2005-12-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

just the beginning.

sighhs. i am back here sighhing away. yuppes. thats mie whats. acceppt it. today went to job ntereview. at yio chu kang mrt stn. hong, hw sewlyn and mie went to there. and waited. a second seems to pass so slow. kept spotting the andy is who. lolss. hahas. crapps. its finally 1230. the person called. went there and fill in the form. too badd. guys nt allow. dnt understandd too. yuppes. the form damm naggy. lolss. andy told us the details. blahs blahs. then we canns go lerrs. he seemed bossy. we are confused of lots of things. the pay. the transport. the place. the job. the hours. tryying to figure outtx by looking at the paper. was happy to find a job plus nicce pay. but FAN arrrh. then we went j8. eat the torq. hahas. first time. was nice. but very fatty. fatfatfat. yucks. damm full. so went to shopp arnd with hong. bought movie tickets. bought shorts. nottx pants. sadds. hong bought two dolls. one gurl. one boy. damm cute. couple mahhs. yahhs. finish shopping. went in to watch chicken little. waited for the advertisement. first time so long. wanted to slp lerrs. yawns. the show was okay bahhs. farnie. cute. yea. after thats went home. went online. no sister. no mapling. slack arnd. i have a feeling. and it really happened. my sixth sense doesnt always worked. fcuk. nt functioning well enough. meet up. i hurrt you. i knw. i dnt want give any hope. i scared i dashed it. did i ? didnt mean to. didnt want to get into it right now. i need a break. need time. just like koala bear. hope you are okay. as usual, the same old thing. control your emotions. temper. lollipops and stay healthy and happy. thats my wish for all peeps and those who eat lollipops. maybe some peeps will gettx whats i mean. catch no ball just find mie bahhs. feel free to. but gonna be busy lerrs. whys dnt you all support mie ? is a job of mine. i finally gettx one. you all wanted mie to find. i found and nw nt happy ? is a nice job. is a decent one. dnt trust mie ? motorola mahhs. check mie then. 630am. i canns do it. never tryy, i wont know right ? 1130pm. i canns do it too. i must tryy. i must take the pain in order to earn money. my own money. dnt wanna use other money. understandd ? guess you three. never ever understandd. think of my standd please, will you all ? i need money. let mie show you all i canns do it. frm now onwards. i tryy to slp early. wake up early. guess i will keep myself as busy as possible. wanted to forget. decided to. on the process to. but it happened. so whats should i do ? you tell mie. get back and it isnt the same anymore. dnt wanna get back and felt sth missing. but where is it ? i am just confused. let mie be. many many more problems coming. take loads cares. i will be there.

SOS'

2005-12-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

SOS'

sighhs. i am sick. just leave mie alonne. everything just goes wrong. i hate this fcuk life. i need a job now. HELP MIE !

trust ?

2005-11-30T14:07:00.000+08:00

trust ?

sighhs. prom night ws kind of okay. everyone looked pretty and handsome. nottx a single one is ugly. yuppes. took lots of pics then went in. sitted separately. we dont want ! who cares. blahs blahs blahs. so draggy. games was okay. have a good laugh but a badd cry too. haiss. choosing prom queen and king. wa ! fs was scary lolss. but special. in the end were boon and hazel. nottx badd lahhs. the 8 dishes was like soso. no shark fins. lolss. spent 70 dollars just to eat, play and take pics. hahas. like waste money. had lucky draw. didnt know i won. was shocked but is ony voucher whats. five dollars only. hahas. so lousy. guess i am nottx as lucky as boan. yahhs. ipod belongs to him. ummm. took more pics after thats. then went to watch movie. emily rose. hahas. me and jo watched this. and others watched harry potter. i am scared. but was okay. maybe i am too tiredd bahhs. nearly fell asleep nia. ummm. two hours lerrs. my fone had no batt. jo's dad fetch mie home. so nice. its raining. her mum fetch mie to my hse. so sweet of her. and end up nobody trust mie. came home at 3 plus. bathe and blahs blahs. slept at 4 plus. i know you all will worry but i told you all lerrs. i informed you all. whys dnt you all trust mie ? fcuk. even grandma knows. called and give scolding early in the morning. i cant slp well. woke up at 9 plus. never had enuff sleep. cried non stop. i was hurt. deeply hurt by you all. i want trust. canns ? if you all trust mie, dnt ask mie to highlight back. dnt ask mie to stayed at home. i will find a job. I WILL. if i am badd, will i still call home ? will i still stay at home ? i hate it. cant i stay late outside ? i am nottx a kid anymore. i am a grown up. i have my own freedom. arrrgh ! eyes damm pain. later have chalet. guess if i go, my dad will scold more. all your fault. yesh, my fault. i really admire those family. sighhs. thats my life. my fcuk like. my fcuk fate.